Confessions by JC

Once a Charmed One, ALWAYS a Charmed One.

2012-02-01T07:52:00.000+08:00

Since high school, Charmed has always been my favorite TV series. For one, it is the first US series iwatched wholeheartedly; and two, ifell in love with it because of the witchy stuff... Well, at least that's what ithought back then.

When Charmed ended, ijust cried. I love the show so much it felt like saying goodbye to a best friend who's about to live abroad. After Charmed, i never thought id never love another show again so ibought things that would remind me of them - DVDs, books; ieven saved (and printed) the scripts from some of my favorite episodes from the show! I have been rewatching the show ever since it ended and inever get tired watching it but the longer i rewatched it, the more irealized why ilove it so much and why im so hooked with the show - because it's not just about sisters who happened to be witches, it's about family and dealing with typical family problems (while battling demons and trying to protect the innocents, of course).

To be honest, i envy the Halliwells. I know they are just fictional characters, but their rapport on-screen is just soooooo believable. Even the problems they have to face (magical or normal), it amazes me how they handle them and how they stick to each other despite facing a tough situation.

When mom was still alive, (iused to think that) our family is probably the perfect family our neighbors look up to. Despite all the things that happened between me and my relationship with my family, ithought that what we had can definitely be compared to the Halliwells. Unfortunately, just like when the show ended, that thought bubble popped out, too.

It has been almost six years since Charmed ended and I may have found new TV series to love but I'll probably never fall in love in another show just like how ifell in love with Charmed. After all, first love never dies, right?

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Borderline

2011-10-23T14:10:00.001+08:00

What would it take for you to get even with your 'enemies?' Up to what extent can and will you do just to get the kind of revenge you want? Will you take it up online? Or would you rather let the law take over? Would you take advantage and make stories to make it seem that people are ganging up on you when you're the one who pushed yourself down to your own grave?

It's funny how people create stories just to get sympathy votes. I've been out here for quite sometime now but people still keep on blabbering shit about me, the other people, and why we did what we did. Please, can't they just shut their mouth and move on? Oh well, what can I expect? These types of people normally likes harping on the past, pala. (=

It's just funny how people would say things because we're not talking back. Are you surprised we're not even saying things about you? Well, let's just say I don't care a shit about you anymore and really, what would I get anyway if I 'get back' at ya? I'm already in a happy place so don't you be pulling me back to your hell. Trust me, you wouldn't want me to start talking... with all the things I know about you and the dirt you have been carrying with you all these years? You'd probably want to start digging deeper your grave when it happens. Oh 'honey,' quit talking... Or you'd be sorry you ever come up with a false story.

And please, stop acting as if you're the victim because you know that you're the very reason why everything happened. Remember, you still owe me something, bitch. And don't think that I'm unaware of things; I still got eyes and ears, ya'know. (=

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When bad comes to worse…

2011-10-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

They sayeverything happens for a reason, but for some reason, I just don’t understandwhy BSs need to happen these past few days. After the big change that happeneda few months ago, things have been different… way different – no horriblebosses, no nosey coworkers, no absurd rules, and best of all, no STRESS. Well,maybe there’s still stress; but it’s a different kind of stress this time.

On the otherhand, fate has been pretty tough with me lately. Maybe this is my punishmentfor assuming that things will be instantly well after changing my life in just24 hours; or maybe, shit just really happens all the time. I don’t want to beoverly pessimistic as much as possible but as my 26th birthday comes close, Ifeel more and more helpless with the things that are happening right now. Iknow I should do something about it to end this shit, but honestly, I justdon’t know what to do. Although people are already telling me what are thethings that I should do but for some reason, I just couldn’t do it. Maybe I’mscared; or maybe I just don’t want to offend other people. Whatever the reasonis, I just really hope that things will be better on the 10th.

Speaking of myforthcoming 26th birthday, I honestly don’t know what I would want to do withit. Even if I’ve already made plans with friends and cousins about it, suddenlyI don’t feel like celebrating at all. It could have been because I’m still outof budget, or maybe because there’s just no reason for celebrating it. Don'tget me wrong; I'm not at all concerned about getting old or whatever, I'm justnot at all excited with these "birthday celebrations." It could'vehave also been because when I was young, we never really celebrate ourbirthdays by coming up with a 'party'; usually, it's just going to the churchand eating out then done! Whatever, maybe tomorrow I'd be able to know what todo by then.

So, people maywonder, what is really going on here? Well, let's just say that things are notas glamorous as I thought it would be. I may be facing a difficult time rightnow and I can’t help but wonder: how longwill this continue? Should I just get used to it? How long will I have to waitto reach my goals? Maybe I made a baddecision… But if I were ever given the chance to choose between staying in thissituation or go back to my old routine, I'd rather stay right where I ambecause at least here, I wouldn't have to deal with horrible bosses, noseycoworkers, absurd rules, and stressful bitches who are so full of themselvesand thinks they have all the answers. Besides, I’ve already been in thatbusiness for more than five years and didn’t receive what I deserve so why goback? Plus, I don't need to think about how to treat all these pimples somuch anywhere as I am already happy to where I am now. :)

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2011-09-11T15:32:00.001+08:00

The Morning Rush 15th Anniversary Celebration

2011-07-09T19:35:00.010+08:00

Chico and Delle while doing the Q&A after the 6-9am show

This is definitely one of my most favorite photos with C&D. Ang kulit kasi ni chico! =D

The Rushers... and they're just SOME of the regulars.

Simply put, the 15th Anniv celebration was doubly FUN. Kahit na napakaraming tao kanina at super siksikan sa CBTL, it was ok. Buti na lang it wasn't raining that hard compared last June 25th (well, at least in Emerald Av). Btw, I started taking photos nung after ng (live) show (9am)... as in ganun kasi karami yung tao to the point na hindi ako makakuha ng photos, let alone to get the camera fr my bag kasi super siksikan (at kamusta naman ang height ko, di ba? asa pa kayo!). Anyway, I'm happy and proud to be part of The Morning Rush family. I've been listening to Chico and Delle since high school and even if it's been 5years since I graduated fr college, hindi pa rin ako nagsasawa sa kapapakinig sa kanila. I've tried listening to (a rival) once, pero iba pa rin ang TMR. I guess ganun talaga pag love mo ang isang bagay.

To Chico and Delle, thank you for inspiring us every morning. There were times na naiinis ako sa kanila (esp like, two years ago), pero I keep telling myself na it wasn't me they're referring to (ihopeso). With C&D, I learned a lot of things. Kahit na dumating yung times na ipinagbawal sa office ang paggamit ng cellphone (even as a player), idontcare... basta ang mahalaga, makapakinig ako sa kanila. Thank you C&D, esp when iwent on air for the Dear Chix and Delle. You have no idea how much iloveyou guys!

To the Rushers, kaka-iba kayo! Kahit na ang pe-pervert niyo (nagsalita! =p), ang sarap niyong kasama. I may have not met all of you, and kahit na sa twitter lang tayo madalas mag-usap, the best kayo. See you next EB!

To The Morning Rush, I thank God you exists. Sana nga magkatotoo yung sinabi ni Delle kanina, "see you on the 30th Anniv Celebration" (kahit imposible).

To The Morning Rush, to Chico and Delle, and to the Rushers, HAPPY 15TH ANNIVERSARY TO ALL OF US!

xo,

jhack (aka 'danceempress')

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10 (Important) Things

2011-07-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

The rules are simple. Just write 10 things (I would've go for the same old "20 things" pero ok na 'to) you wanted to say (without telling who is it for). So, batu-bato sa langit, ang tamaan, (siguradong magagalit) GUILTY. (=

1. Wow. I’m not your best friend but I’m a much better friend than your BFF.

2. I wasn’t talking to you for nothing. I prefer not to talk to you because I don’t wanna be associated with a whore and a liar like you.

3. The reason why people leave isn’t (just) because they want change, but because you’re too blinded by your power.

4. If you hurt my friend, I will hurt you back… literally and figuratively!

5. Never let your talent go to waste. If you let people take advantage on you, you will regret it. Learn from our mistakes, and don’t let a higher-up use you for their own (greedy) benefits.

6. Choose who to trust. Nothing in this place is as it seems.

7. I trust you. So please, prove me right.

8. Instead of wasting funds for useless things, why don’t you try saving what you’re getting everyday? We’re not an ATM, you know!

9. Honestly, I don’t know if I can trust you… but even if my mind tells me not to, a part of me says that ishould try.

10. You hate me. I get it. But can you at lease be civil? If I only have a choice, I would NEVER want to talk to you… EVER!

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Second Chances

2011-06-20T19:48:00.008+08:00

I was trying to find the official lyrics for this song but was not lucky to find one, so I tried to transcribed it myself instead. Pls feel free to correct if you found any errors with the lyrics.

"Second Chances" by Lea Salonga

(a song from Allegiance, a new Broadway-bound Musical)

When emptiness is all there is to see,

The joy that you once knew, a distant memory.

When the purpose of each morning is forgotten with each night,

and it doesn't seem to matter if you give up or you fight.

Look again, that is when your world's about to change.

Nothing in life is so permanent that love can't re-arrange...

Second chances

Life is rich with second chances,

Second songs with second dances, second melodies.

For if you've only got one shot, if once or nothing's all you've got,

Your days would just be filled with single moments, single memories.

But I believe hearts can conceive of more than one bright happy ending

Roads may split in two you, can't go down both in advance.

We know and yet we still forget our paths are never so unbending,

Life has given you a second chance.

Second chances

The world provides with second chances...

New adventures, new romances, new responsibilities.

For if you're always looking back, your eyes might miss the second track

You take no chances, seize no day, live no possibilities.

But hearts desire, hearts afire, ablaze you grow from a single ember,

Yesterday turns toward tomorrow, a brand new circumstance.

What's past is past but it's not the last

We're not alive to just remember.

When life has said to you,

Not a chance, but two...

Life has granted you a second chance.

(Video Source: Youtube.com)

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Brain fart

2011-06-01T19:19:00.008+08:00

I was supposed to blog about something that happened these past few days but then I decided to delete the post and ramble instead... marami kasing chuchu sa tabi-tabi eh.

1. "Masarap kaya yung hotdog ni Aljur?" I don't know if Monique and I are just dirty-minded but something's really wrong with this phrase. Blame it on Gaeile dahil sa kanya galing ang mga katagang 'yan. Note to self: huwag pagsasamahin ang words na masarap, hotdog, and a guy's name in a sentence. Baaaaaaaaaaadddd idea. ;)

2. ANTM Cycle 15 Jane. I'm not a big fan of her, but it was nice that someone who wasn't even in the final 2 landed a contract with the same modeling agency the WINNER got. And it's not just some kind of modelling agency, it's IMG. Wow, di ba?

3. 100 Days to Heaven. In fairness ha, I'm really liking this Teleserye. Maliban sa mga moral lessons na makukuha mo with watching the soap, it also makes you think, what if you were given the chance na itama yung lahat ng mali mo? Plus, I like it because it's not the typical Pinoy soap na boy-meets-girl kind of story, but more like a twist on the good vs evil theme.

4. Mamamar. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala that Delle's having a baby na. Parang kailan lang, I told her malapit na niyang ma-meet yung the one, tapos ngayon she's like what, on her 2nd trimester already? Ang galing! =D

5. End of the World. Remember May 21, 2011 'Doomsday?' We all know it was just a hoax, pero kailan nga kaya guguho ang mundo? Naalala ko tuloy yung mga recurring dreams ko last year... it will all start after October 10, 2011. Ayokong magpaka-Nostradamus but these dreams that keeps coming true scares the hell out of me. First lolo, then the babies, then delle, at yung iba pa, and now, this... hay! Let's just hope that it's all just a dream.

6. Jhong Hilario. ABS-CBN should commend this man for his portrayal of Gary David. Nakaka-inis talaga siya, in fairness. Sarap batukan. (biruin mo, nag-TT ang Mara Clara Finales sa Twitter?!

7. Five years. It's been five freaking years. Minsan iniisip ko kung pa'no ko nagawang makatagal dito ng limang taon. Maybe I'm really just that loyal (really that what? *evilgrin*)... or maybe, I just don't have a choice. But then, maybe I do have a choice. It's just that I chose to suck it all up and try to do my best in what I do... despite knowing that it will never be reciprocated.

8. Pretty Little Liars. I really love this novel. And this was the first time I was able to finish reading 8 books in less than 3 months! Wala lang, it's fun knowing someone's secrets and up to what extent would a person do to keep someone's mouth shut. (=

9. Katy Perry Revenge. I really want to have this app on my iPod, but I haven't installed Jailbreak yet. Sabi ng pinsan ko dapat daw lower than Version 4.3.something yung iPod bago ka mag-jailbreak. Ang masaklap, kaka-update ko lang ng iPod! Nakngtokwa naman o! :/

10. MEG, my meg. I can't believe meg is 13 years old now. Naalala ko pa, nu'ng first year high school, isang hamak na reader lang ako. Then, after like, 8 years, naging intern ako, i still read meg... now, 5 years after I finished college, i still love meg. Although, sana lang enough of making her appear too old na. Tama na yung they cater to yuppies lang. Anyhow, i still (and will always do) love meg no matter what. <3

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Remembering My Mom (Reprise)

2011-05-07T23:18:00.005+08:00

I found this on my multiply account while I was looking for LMR photos and since it's Mother's Day tomorrow, allow me to pay a little tribute to her through this little blog (re)post:

I did not make any editing with the post so forgive the grammatical errors.

Remembering My Mom (Reprise)

date posted: 16 January 2009

Almost three years ago, I wrote an article entitled "Remembering my Mom" that landed a space in meg magazine's Think About It section. It was an article I wrote for our Feature Writing class that actually took me a week to finish the article because every time I remember what happened I would stop and cry, regretting the things that I wasn't able to do, share or show while she was still here. It was a painful story but opened many eyes. However, it was last year (2008) when I felt I miss mom the most. I don't exactly know why, but 2008 was a really heart breaking (and so far the most stressful) year for me; so much that I could only wish I can astral project to where she is right now and share things to her.

Yes, even now that I'm 23, I still feel jealous whenever I see mothers and daughters together. Sometimes I even tell myself, "what if mom is still here?" and "if only she was here...” despite the fact of knowing that there is a purpose of her leaving us that early. I don't know; I just miss her terribly. There were times when I would hate my younger cousins if I see them talking shit to their moms, and I would tell myself, "You have no idea what the heck you're doing." I know I'm not the best daughter my parents ever had, but I wasn't raised to talk like that to my mom (or my dad). I just wished that those who disrespect their parents (their mom especially) will learn their lesson sooner than they think.

Anyway, ever since she left us, everything changed... at home, within the family, especially me. After mom's death, I thought that doors will open its way for me to feel "closer" to the rest of my family but it didn't happened (or at least I think it didn't yet). Things get worse... I had many sleepless nights, falling asleep crying, or waking up in the middle of the night crying... all because I remember (or dreamed) about mom.

Speaking of dreams, I once dreamed about getting lost in a forest when a fine lady pointed me to the right direction. I said "thank you so much Mie" when I was about to leave, even though I was very sure that she wasn't my own Mommy. At the time I was having second thoughts whether it was really my mom who pointed me the right path (only on a different face) or if I just see that person as a "Mom figure." It was kinda weird because whenever I see her in my dream she would barely say anything to me. Even though I wish I could talk to her even in my dreams, she just wouldn't. I wish I know why.

Of the six years that she's been "away" from us, life gets harder and harder everyday. Sometimes I already want to give up but her passing made me realized that I shouldn't... that somehow, she's "up there" guiding us and will not let anything bad to happen to us. And even if I wasn't as kind, open, and patience like my siblings, I think (I wish) that I somehow made her proud... not only for finishing school without any failing grades, but for following my dreams and slowly making them come to life (even if she's kinda doubting "what I want" at first).

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

For YOU!

2011-04-14T20:36:00.003+08:00

You Are Such A Skeeze.

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2011-04-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

ALWAYS REMEMBER...
Greed: A very excessive or rapacious desire and pursuit of wealth, status, and power.
It's one of the Seven Deadly Sins... in case you forgot.

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2011-04-08T13:01:00.006+08:00

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i iz just sayin'...

2011-04-06T19:53:00.007+08:00

fudntstpstlkngillstrttlkng.

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Rant.

2011-02-17T20:51:00.003+08:00

It's like one of those days when you feel like freezing everyone who opens their mouth. It's that time of the month when you just want everyone to leave you alone. No, I'm not talking about PMS-ing or having a period. It's just one of those days...

I know what my responsibilities are. Even if I can't even save a peso for myself, at the end of the day I feel contented that at the very least, I get to fulfill my duties (I hope)... Plus, I get to buy a book that I can read, but that was it. No extra cash to say that "these are the fruits of my labor."

Sometimes I wonder if I'm being too kind for doing too much, or am I really just that selfish? I don't know. Every month I always think about all the things I need to do... and bills that I need to pay for. Everything. People think that it's like speaking to a tree but believe me, I'm listening. Sometimes people would also say that I'm too kind because I keep saying 'yes' to everything even if it's against my will, but I don't know why I still feel like I'm the most selfish person in the world... I don't know why and how they can make me feel like I'm the most self-centered bitch in the world. Maybe I am. But I'm trying my hardest to do everything. I work hard (maybe working too hard for the money) just so I can get a higher pay every month; still, it just doesn't seem enough.

I miss those times when I don't have to think about anything but myself... Times when I can save P100 on my P150 baon just so I can save and watch a Lea Salonga concert.

Maybe, all I want to say is, "how much I'm getting is soooooo NOT enough."

But what can I do? Quit? Maybe. But am I ready to start all over again? I don't know. Maybe I should just suck it all up and proceed with what I have started because this is making me look like an idiot and immature.

Maybe, this is the best that I can do (for now), rant and keep working... even if it's not good enough.

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The Wonders of iPod Apps...

2011-01-11T06:47:00.008+08:00

Okay, fine. So I'm a bit addicted to photo editors available on iPod. I don't know. I love using those photo editors because it gives life to ordinary (boring, lifeless) photos. See, the secret of editing a photo using your iPod isn't whether you're using the free version or not, but how you use and utilize what you downloaded. In this entry I'm sharing my secret as to how I'm doing all these editing to alot of my photos. I hope you'll find something useful.

1. Iris Photo Suite 1.2
Open the photo that you will edit and start playing around its features. What I love about this particular app is a. it's FREE and b. it's got a lot of features that you can play to. Browse around its feature and find various effects that will add more like to your photo like Polarizer, Vintage, Retro, and so on. Once you've done the first part, click SAVE.

2. Blur FX
Once you're done with Iris Photo Suite, proceed to Blur FX app. Click "Edit New Photo" and find the one that you just edited using Iris Photo Suite. There you can blur the photo as blurry as you want; it's also got some added features like Vignette and filters. When you're finished, again click SAVE.

3. Live FX Lite
Again, open the photo you just edited (using Blur FX, this time). This can be a bit tricky as this is where you need to be a little more creative. What I usually do here first is add a frame (depending on what will look good on your photo). Play around with its feature like Radial Blur, Black and White Vignette, Artificial Flash I and II, Lomo and other else. One thing that also makes me fall in love with this app is that I get to save that edit to a preset, allowing me to use that preset on my next photo editing session.

Here is a sample of three photos I did using the said photo editors. Hope you liked it and learned something.

Original Photo (Click Photo to enlarge)

Edit #1: Iris Photo Suite 1.2

Edit #2: Blur FX

Edit #3: Live FX Lite

(Original Image Source: OfficialMariaKanellis)
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When too much is a bad thing...

2010-11-17T21:34:00.010+08:00

My sister and I never grew up with a palo. It could be because we got sick the one time our dad hit us, or that they just don’t think it was the right way to discipline us. Growing up, I saw my cousins received spanks here and there, especially if they did something that’s below the belt (like swearing or cursing the adults). To tell you honestly, I think that when it comes to those things, a slight palo is enough. However, as my nephew and nieces grow old, I keep asking myself, “is it ever right to hit a kid when they misbehave… even because of a slightest error?

I personally do not believe that hitting your kid is the best way to “teach them a lesson.” I know some parents here would say I don’t have any right to say these things, that I would never know because I’m not a parent, and/or that sometimes, you just really have to… but that’s beside the point; SOMETIMES. Not every day and neither every time they failed to follow your word.

I also wonder about how could parents tell their kids to “stop crying” or else they would hit them. I mean, how could someone keep a little boy or girl from expressing his or her feelings? They’re just kids and crying their hearts out was their only outlet to let adults know how they feel (besides throwing stuff at you).

I may not be a parent and could be a little tough when it comes to my nephew and nieces (ok, fine, I’m a total bitch when it comes to them) but I would never lay my hands on them. They may hear me shout and exchange words with them but at least (for me); feelings get better after everything had been released. Sorry, I just don’t believe that hitting them would make any difference.

Kayo kaya ang lumugar sa kinalalagyan nila… hindi ba you guys used to curse your folks din before for punishing you? Then why are you doing the same with your child?

Truth be told, hindi matututo ang mga yan if you keep hitting them over and over. Tignan niyo, they’re even starting to hit each other now. Is that the kind of lesson you wanna instill them?

Think about it.

(PS: Photo Source: NYDailyNews)
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When Heartbreak was the hardest...

2010-11-12T23:52:00.006+08:00

It's one thing to break up with your special someone, but it's even harder to breakup with a friend. Why does it hurt so much than losing a boyfriend or a girlfriend?... Because we rarely experience it, unlike that of a romantic relationship.

I've had fall outs with (best) friends before... fall outs that led to years of not communicating, changing cliques, and even bashing each other over the internet. It wasn't easy you know... knowing that that person probably knows where to hit you. But what hurts more was the fact that the FRIENDSHIP is over... or you think is over.

I'm not good at handling this thing. I hate having a fall out with a friend... especially if they're that important for me. It just hurts.

It all started when I found out that she is having an "affair" over the internet with someone she met over a Social Networking site. Don't get me wrong, I actually don't think there's anything wrong with that; it just pissed me off when our comments started to get deleted that led her to blocking us off even on her wall. I was like, what's up with you? So I started to recall everything that's happened in the past and made me think, Is it just us or does she really NOT care about our so-called "friendship?"

I keep assuring the others to give her a chance... because I know her. She's my baby and I want to be there for her. But these past few weeks, it just felt like I (we) wasn't a part of her life. So I take it on her. I took it on Facebook... on Twitter... anywhere I could relay my wrath to her but still, no word from her.

Then one day she sent me a private message saying how "sorry" she was for everything that happened. I actually believed that she could've finally come to her senses, but I was wrong. I tried to fight for (our friendship)... really, I did.

About a week or two prior to my birthday, I emailed everyone that I wanted to meet up a week after my birthday. Again, she said she's not sure because work caught up with her. Why is it that when it comes to "us," our 'date' always has to sacrifice? I got pissed... I got extremely pissed; not just because she is going to miss my birthday celebration, but it's been TWO years that she is going to miss my birthday celebration.

I know my taking it on Facebook is very childish, or bitchy, or whatever you wanna call it but, it just pains me. I tried everything to give her a chance to fix things... PM, Wall posts, blogs, texts (Yes, I did text you), but I NEVER got an answer... or an effort that she really meant what she said. I hate it when people say one thing and do another. It's just bullshit! So I decided to do exactly the same things she is doing to us - block her off my wall. I'm sorry, but YOU really did hurt me.

I don't wanna do this, but I'm already really tired of being the only one who cared about saving whatever is left of this relationship. I'm so sorry, but like I said, I can't wait for you forever. You hurt me too much already so bye... at least for now.

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How Do I Look???

2010-10-22T23:02:00.008+08:00

Tonight, on my way home, a stranger went up to me and said, "Te, foreigner ka?" I looked at him with my brows raised then proceed walking... What's up with that?!

I know what I did was a bit bitchy (or rude) but it made me wonder, do I really looked like a foreigner? When I was young, my grandma's sister used to call me "Nagaraya" because people said I looked like Dayanara Torres. I think it was when I cut my hair short that people started to say (or so they think) that I looked like her. It never really occurred to me about my resemblance with her until I grew up but I thought, and so?

Now, as I was growing up (old), people said I look like either Anne Hathaway or (former WWE Diva) Maria Kanellis. Honestly, I really don't see what people see in me (or them) and they are saying those things but I think it's really flattering. I'm just happy that who I am being compared with are beautiful women... hahaha!

No, but really... I guess all I wanna say is, it really flatters me when people say I look like the former Miss Universe, Princess Mia or a former WWE Diva. But then again, at the end of the day, all I really want is to look no one but ME. (=

(Maria Kanellis, former WWE Diva)

(Dayanara Torres, Miss Universe '93)

(Anne Hathaway, Actress)

(Jhack Telan... wala lang! =p)

queck<3
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Now Playing: Wouldn't Change A Thing

2010-09-24T21:59:00.007+08:00

I'm not a big fan of Camp Rock (despite seeing it for more than 10x na ata) but I have to admit, there were several songs in the film that just hit me straight in the heart. Like this song I'm going to share with all of you. I don't know why I like the song, but there's definitely something in it that makes me go, "i know, right?"

So here it is; just listen to the song and feel its lyrics. You'll love it too, I'm sure.

Wouldn't Change A Thing
Performed by: Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas
OST Camp Rock 2

Demi: It's like he doesn't hear a word I say
His mind is somewhere far away
And I don't know how to get there

Demi: And it's like all he wants is to chill out
Joe: She's always serious
Demi:Make me wanna pull all my hair out
Joe: She's always in a rush uninterrupted
Demi:Like he doesn't even care
Joe: Like she doesn't even care

Demi: You
Joe: Me

Both: Were face to face but we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain
You can drive me insane
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
Were venus and mars
Were like different stars
Your the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

Joe: She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let the music play
She's all or nothing
But my feeling never change

Joe: I try to read her mind
Demi: Why does he try to read my mind
Joe: She tries to pick a fight
Demi: Like I'm being physcoanaylized
Joe: To get attention
Both: That's what all of my friends say

Demi: You
Joe: Me
Both: Were face to face but we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain
You can drive me insane
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
Were venus and mars
Were like different stars
Your the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

Joe: When I'm yes she's no
Demi: When I hold on he just lets go
Both: Were perfectly imperfect
but I wouldn't change a thing, No

Like fire and rain
You can drive me insane
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
Were venus and mars
Were like different stars
Your the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

But I cant stay mad at you for anything
Were venus and mars
Were like different stars
Your the harmony to every song I sing
But I wouldn't change a
Wouldn't change a thing

(Sources: Lyrics - STLYRICS, mp3 - MP3Raid)

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Catching Up... From Two Years Ago!

2010-09-04T20:23:00.008+08:00

I wrote this two years ago but I had forgotten to finish this entry because... I don't know. This entry was actually for my Multiply account. And since I've already forgotten about (updating) my account, and it's been almost two years, I decided, "what the hell, I'm gonna publish it now before the (second) year ends."

"Catching Up..."
Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Hey y'all! It's been quite a while since I last updated this space and I am just happy I'm able to do this today. A lot of things have happened since my last post and as I stated in my previous post, I miss Multiply... A LOT! I really miss blogging in here, reading out my friends' blogs and looking through photos, and just catching up with friends. So friends, are you ready to catch up? (=

Charmed, Charmed and more Charmed! Right now my eyes kinda sore from staying too long in front of the computer doing my work, watching The Hills, and answering endless Charmed trivia questions on Facebook. Nevertheless, I am enjoying what I do and I aim to do this for as long as I can, so long as my client is happy with my outputs. Of course, I would not stop answering Charmed trivia’s as well; even if it doesn't seem like the questions have no end. Actually, I'm kinda pissed off coz I can't have my supposedly daily marathon every night. My portable DVD player got busted and it would take a month before I can use it again (I had it fixed in the auto center). What makes it worse is that the discs wouldn't play in the other player as well and obviously, I can't use my cousin's player everyday. (I'm actually thinking of just buying a new DVD player, not the portable, just so I can watch it again... yaman! =p)

Christmas Rush: As I am writing this I wasn't done with my Christmas shopping yet. Actually, I still have a few gifts to buy and of course, I still have to buy myself a gift. I was supposed to purchase an iPod Radio Remote for myself as a Christmas present but after reading the reviews from apple.com, I am now having a second thought whether I should still buy it or not. I mean, I don't wanna waste P2,500 if it's gonna get broke in less than 1 year... that would really, really suck! I think I will just buy myself an mp4 or a new phone with a built-in FM in it.. Oh well, that's for me to decide tomorrow.

Hit Her Baby One More Time: A few nights ago, I heard my niece crying out loud after she got screamed by her mom. I went outside my room to check and when I get to the living room, I found out that my niece "accidentally" inserted her finger on the electric fan. I checked her finger (to see if it's bleeding) and it's almost limping, but when my brother came rushing, he asked what happened and instantly *slapped my niece. I was shocked seeing my brother do that to my three year old niece so I just left them and go back to my room. When I had gone back to my room I felt kinda pissed off; I mean, how could he do that to that little kid?! I mean, ok, she's done something bad... I'm not in the position to tell them what to and what not to do but come on, have mercy on that kid! My niece knocked at my door and when I opened it, she came to me sobbing. I felt so annoyed and however I tried to comfort her, I could feel that she's hurt deep inside. I feel helpless that I didn't do anything to stop him from doing that, but at the same time, I don't wanna mind them coz all I care at that time was my niece. I know how she feels coz I too have been hit by my dad once... It was that one and only time that he hit me and my sister. I remember he and mom fought after that, because we got sick after he hit me and my sister. It was just one time but it stucked in my head... I may have forgotten why did he hit us, but I've never forgotten the pain he's caused us. I just wish that they can feel the pain whenever they hit the kids.

In My Astral Self: It's been weeks since I started using my YM status message "still on my astral self..." I can't really say what is up with that status, but in the past few weeks, I feel like a part of me is missing. Although I'm not sure which part, it's like something in me needs rebooting. Sometimes I find myself laughing so hard because of a top ten entry, and then one second my emotion shifts and I'm like so mad at the world. I guess I'm just really naturally weird. What a retard! =p

JC Like LC: I had a conversation with Angel like two or three Saturdays ago and we actually talked about a lot of things from her driving lessons, to all the bills I need to pay, to bitches in her school, chris brown and attending concerts, to MEG Magazine, Seventeen and The Hills. I found out that we both liked The Hills, and she told me that LC reminded her of me. I asked her why and she said that it's because LC works for a magazine, and then with the "losing your friend thing", I thought, "hmmm, yeah, maybe we are the same in that part of life." I was delighted that we can actually chat even with different emails (she using Prodigy.net and I'm using Yahoomail) so we talked over the IM for like 2 or 3 hours (two hours with her, 1 hour with her mom). And since I can't catch the airing of the show on TV, I decided to just go back to watching The Hills online. It was fun, and it fills up my two hour break (before 5pm).

Net Net Mo!!! Have you ever been in a situation where you have so much work to do when all of a sudden, the internet connection was cut? You waited for a few minutes for the connection to come back but it seemed like there is no way it's gonna come back anymore. The worst part is, the Internet is the only way you can do your work. Sucks so much, eh? Well, I'm exactly in that position at this very moment. It's been an hour since the internet connection got busted and an hour and two minutes passed, there's still no sign of the connection coming back. I hate this part because I have A LOT to do today because it's a new task and I'm already sucking at it with having a VERY low output. Yesterday I was having a hard time thinking of my "wish list" for the exchange gift but now, I know exactly what to say... "A 'Leader' who can fix the internet connection like SHE does." So much of Useless Leaders!

Nine Mornings: Last Monday, the Simbang Gabi started at 9pm in our Kawan mass and as usual, I decided to attend Simbang Gabi again. During the first night, Father Jun asked the people, "Bakit ka nagsi-Simbang Gabi? Is it because it's a tradition and you just feel like it's appropriate to follow this tradition? Or is it because you have a wish that you want to come true and attending the Simbang Gabi will serve as your novena? Or is it because the mass is happening near your place and you feel the need to attend?" With those questions I started asking myself as to why I'm there. When my mom was still alive, I used to join her in attending all those nine Simbang Gabi. I always come with her because I always find Simbang Gabi fun (in our parish, Simbang Gabi has a lot of gimiks). However, when mom passed away, I started realizing that Simbang Gabi isn't just about having fun because of the songs and the gimiks Father Jun share with the people... it's not just about completing nine nights just to make your wishes come true, and not even because the mass is happening in our place. For me, Simbang Gabi are the perfect time to thank Him for all the blessings that He's given- good or bad; it's about thanking Him that in spite of all the challenges we have to face, we're still here... alive and kicking. It's been two days since it started and so far, I've attended two masses already and is planning to complete all the nine nights again... just like how my mom used to.

Catching Bad, er, Good Dreams: While I was buying gifts for Christmas last weekend, I chanced upon a medium-sized dream catcher in Kulturang Pilipino. Although I know what the real purpose of dream catcher is, I don't really believe in what it really does but since it's so cheap, I decided to buy one for myself. I hang it above my headrest, hoping to have good dreams but instead, I got not so good dreams. I've been having weird dreams lately... more like tragic dreams. Last night, I dreamed that GMA-Kamuning station (MRT) had a fire which started with an explosion. The weird thing is that our office (in the dream) is located a few buildings from where it happened. I know that because the building receptionist called our office, telling everyone to evacuate the building because it may get on fire as well (the fire in the Kamuning station was THAT huge it may reach our building). I remember getting kinda shocked by the news because prior to the explosion, I was supposed to ride the MRT and go somewhere... what's more alarming though is that I am completely aware that someone I know was in the train when the explosion happened. We weren't that close but I know her and she works there too (PS: I hope it was one of 'em bitches but no :s). I have some more bad, weird dreams but I'm not gonna elaborate all of them anymore.

MEGgurls Forever!!! A few months (if I remembered it right) ago Nica told me that Ana and Anette will be featured in Friendster Of The Month. I know it takes a few months to prepare for a particular issue, but I never realized it will be published this soon. When I saw the page in this month's issue, I felt happy because they used our picture with Beauty Ed Kim Reyes and Nica. I was also surprised to see my face (along with Ana and Anette, of course) in the Shindig page, taken during the 10th Anniv party.

There ya go folks. I know it's too late to even post this 'update' but so what, right? At least I was able to publish it... even if it's two years late. (Just you wait for the next set of 'Catching Ups', I'm writing it now! (=

Btw, the photo above was fr two months ago... at least it's pretty recent. (=
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Charmed, Are You?

2010-08-31T17:01:00.007+08:00

I know it's been yearssssssss since Charmed ended but since I wasn't able to add these Qs in the Charmed Trivia on Facebook, why not post 'em here and see if anyone can answer the following:

1. How many times was "Prue" mentioned in the episode Sympathy for Demon?
a. 5x
b. 10x
c. 8x
d. never

2. What spell is this for? "Moments lost make witches wonder, warlocks plot or demons plunder, if this is not a prank, help us to fill in the blanks." (Hint: "Forget Me Not" ep)
a. spell to fill in the blanks
b. memory spell
c. erase the memory spell
d. there's no such spell that exists

3. In Forget Me Not, what is the one and only reason why Chris came from the future? (as said by Leo)
a. to protect Wyatt
b. to save Paige from the Titans
c. to become the Charmed One's new whitelighter

4. In the episode Forget Me... Not, what is Piper referring to when she said: "Secondly, it is my fault because I'm the one that plopped Wyatt in front of the ___?"
a. Book of Shadows
b. Electronic Babysitter
c. Computer
d. None of the above

5. In "Crimes and Witch Deameanors" (Season 6), Pheobe was stripped off her powers; to which episode in Season 7 was she able to gain her power of Premonition back?
a. Styx Feet Under
b. Cheaper By The Coven
c. A Call To Arms
d. Someone to Witch Over Me

6. In the episode "Charrrmed", who did Agent Kyle Brody said he wasn't after?
a. the Halliwell Sisters
b. Inspector Sheridan
c. Darryl Morris
d. Adult Chris

7. In the episode "Charrrmed," what did Agent Brody told Inspector Sheridan when he stopped her from busting Piper and Phoebe at the museum?
a. "I don't want to catch them stealing. I want to bust them at home."
b. "I don't want to catch them robbing the museum. I want to catch them using magic."
c. "I don't want to catch them killing. I want to catch them using their powers."
d. "I don't want to catch them stealing. I want to catch them using magic."

8. In Charmaggedon, what did Phoebe replied when Piper asked her why did the Avatars took Leo away?
a. "Because Leo caused conflict."
b. "Because the Avatars found out that Leo is working with Zankou."
c. "Because Leo allowed the Avatars to kill him."
d. "Because Leo betrayed the Avatars."

9. True or False: There were NO spells casted on the Episode "Charmaggedon."
a. True
b. False

10. According to Paige, what is the "loophole" the Avatars "forgot" to tell them all about?
a. that they we're going to "remove" people in order to maintain Utopia
b. that Demons are still going to kill innocents
c. that they are still going to fight demons
d. that they will "kill" Leo

Answers soon. (=

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Wannabe's, LEARN FROM THIS!

2010-08-30T12:23:00.002+08:00

A few years ago, I had an argument with a *former best friend* regarding a *lie* that she posted on her profile about a little detail regarding MEG. It was just a tiny lie but as an (former) intern and contributing writer, I had to step up and correct the said testimonial. It was one of the things that caused our friendship to be over but I just thought I should do the "right" thing. However, I'm not gonna spill the details here as to what happened but hearing a new scam affecting MEG Magazine's image irked me to hell.

Before I said anything, watch this video first:

I'm sorry, but what kind of girl would believe that MEG, which is a TEEN Magazine, *requires* a "model wannabe" to 1. send photos wearing only your undies, 2. strip off your clothes in front of the web cam, and 3. pay 5,000 pesos?! First of all, MEG does NOT require models to pay, strip off or even send photos in your panties and bra - whether personally or through e-mail. Also, agents does NOT seek payment for new models. Only modeling academies ask for payment but NEVER agents who are looking for new models. In addition, whenever MEG look for new models, they either asked them to go to the MEG office or well, take the MEG Face Search for example.

Please, I know how "making you famous" can be very tempting but model wannabe's, especially young girls, should know about the business first before jumping into something you'd regret for the rest of your life. This man doesn't even *look* like a handler or a talent agent. And the gull to say he knows (EIC) Peewee Reyes-Isidro! (Grrrrrr!) I'm glad someone stepped up and reported this scam. He deserved to be in jail. (=

Now, as for girls who dreams to be a "model," see what a pretty little lie can do to a wannabe? Next time, be a little WISER, girls. And one helpful tip when it comes to things like this? GOOGLE Searching HELPS. A LOT.

PS: If you wanna see the whole video, go to http://bit.ly/bKMOfE

(Video Credit: bleezyrica3)

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21.May.2010.

2010-05-25T21:56:00.004+08:00

What does it take to find the perfect shoe? To find the pants that would show your assets, or the boyfriend or girlfriend you can call your “one and only?” Looking for new employees is just like that; but what if you were told to “lower your standards?” What does that exactly mean?

I have been told to screen applicants who are vying for the vacant position. I did as I was told and decided to fail applicants who simply “just can’t follow instructions.” There are many of them and batch after batch I keep failing people simply because they did not do what I told them so. After passing 5 out of 13 applicants, my supervisor came to me and advised me to lower my standards when choosing which applicants to pass or fail. The very thought made me think. “Is there something wrong with the way I handle the examination process? Am I really that strict and high maintenance that my judgment is sort of becoming a deal now?” Such thoughts suddenly made me doubt my knowledge and skills regarding the post.

I know I’m not the best one out there and am fully aware of all the mistakes and small rules I am breaking but, are we really willing to take the risk again and accept people just to fast-track the process? Have we not learned from all the mistakes that we have done before? Is quantity really that important over quality? How can we find the best of the best if we accept people who won’t be an asset anyway? This isn’t a social networking site where you can add people even if you don’t know them personally. I love my job and I don’t have any complaints about it but, I don’t think it’s my fault anymore if they don’t wanna push through.

Someone enlighten me please.

Btw, just so everyone knows, and just to make it clear and avoid confusions, misinterpretations and rumors, I don’t have any bad blood about anyone and/or anything, ok? I just really want to let this out. Peace!

xo,
queck <3

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

LEAology 101: 10 Things Every Lealista Should Know.

2010-05-08T12:39:00.007+08:00

Ok, we get it. You adore her... but are you sure you're behaving properly? Well, here are the Top 10 things every LS fans SHOULD keep in mind. Gathered by fans, written for LS fans around the globe. ;)

1. Whatever you say or do, expect less. Masama yung masyadong assuming (na magre-reply siya sa'yo sa lahat ng DM/PM mo sa kanya). But don't worry, I'm sure she reads our messages so don't get disheartened when she fails to reply.
2. Privacy Matters... A Lot! Sure, every fan wants to know what is going on in her life, pero wag naman sanang over the top ang pag-iimbestiga mo to the point na stalker-ish na ang dating.
3. Don't be too pushy. Especially when asking for a photo with her or an autograph. NEVER ask for a signature or photo op (esp) while she's eating. Ayaw ni Manang ng makulit.
4. Avoid Name-Dropping. Just because you're something of someone doesn't mean she'll go and have a conversation with you.
5. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. For me, this is probably the best thing any fan could give her (or anyone you idolize for that matter). During meet and greet, when her Mom says "bukas na lang", just respect her decision. True, we don't get to see her everyday, but doesn't it feel good when you show some respect to her? Yes, we rarely get responses from her, but always remember that even if she does not reply to any of our post, DM or PM, she's always reading each and every single comment so, act accordingly... and just be yourself. (=
6. Make sure you smell nice before you approach Manang for a photo opt or a signature.
7. NEVER publish in a public blog a copy (like a screen cap) of privileged communication with Lea.
8. If by chance you see Lea before any of her shows, especially at or before rehearsals, please keep your distance. She prepares for her shows seriously and would prefer for a fan to wait until after the show.
9. It's LEA, not LEAH. You're a fan, you should know this by now. (=
10. NEVER use Lea's photo as your profile pic. Remember what her then-friendster profile said before, "put up your own photo, maganda ka naman siguro, noh?"

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03.28.06.

2010-03-28T18:07:00.004+08:00

28 March 2006: Today marks my 4th year as an AB Mass Comm grad. I can still remember the day of my graduation; it was the day I almost miss my graduation march because I was a bit late. Boo. Blame it on the traffic.

Speaking of being late and graduation day, it was so fitting because when I graduated from prep, I was awarded "Most Panctual." And now that I'm working, I have been receiving the "Best in Attendance" award... for two years now. (=

Anyway, I have to admit that when I was still a student I wasn't the brightest in class (but I'm [one of] the bff of the brightest in our batch =p). Since we were young, our parents never obliged us to always be on top. It was never a rule at home that we have to be in the honor roll. Heck, I wasn't even in the top 5 or 10 in class during elementary years! But it was ok (or so I think), because our folks stayed behind our backs all the time. Yes, our mom let us study our lessons ourselves, but that doesn't mean that she doesn't care how we are doing in class. It actually taught me how to value school more (although for me, minor subjects are the most boring subjects EVER; I'd rather re-take all my major subjects than taking one minor subject in one sem =p).

When my college year started, my whole life totally changed. Aside from the fact that mom passed away during my sophomore year, it was also during college where I found real, loving and loyal friends. I am so grateful that we stayed with each other for four years, despite all challenges that we need to go through. It was also during college when I realized how much I really wanted to be part of the meg family. Ever since we had our Magazine Documentation, I vowed myself that I do anything to make that dream come true. Luckily, I was able to do so. =D

Now, whenever I take a look at my old notebooks, photocopies, notes, and transcript of records, I know I somehow did a good job in school. I may not be in the top 10, but I think I did the best that I could. Thanks to my mom for not pressuring me to always make sure I was number one in class. (I'll leave that number one spot to Lazelle.) (=

I also wanted to thank my professors and teachers for doing such a wonderful job in teaching me one of the most valuable lessons in life; "When you really want something, you don't just sit there and do nothing for success can only be achieved if you make way to reach those goals."

xo,
queck (=

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It's In The Genes (Lyrics)

2010-01-29T15:57:00.006+08:00

After a year I finally get to post the lyrics of this wonderful song.
I actually had this a year ago but I just wasn't able to post the lyrics.
I also attached a video of the song (fr Youtube) for those who want to hear and see THE Lea Salonga sing this song. Enjoy!

It's In the Genes
Performed By: Lea Salonga
Lyrics: Freddie Santos
Music: Ria Osorio

It's in the genes, I tell you
It's in the genes, I know
It's in the genes, they compel you
to know exactly where you want to go.

It's in the genes, forever
It's in the genes, no choice
It's in the genes, whatever
whether kicking up, or acting out, or tuning in your voice!

Maybe who knows there could have been other choices if I had a different DNA
Then again though, looking at all other choices
Every single one just pointed me this way.

So now I'm here, as always
And what a life it's been
On center stage, not just the hallways
It goes whatever stage of life I'm in.

As a little girl, an awkward teen
A singing actress in between
Someone in love, a wife and mom
How good to know where it all comes from.

It's in the genes, that says it!
It's on the perfect page
And this whole life, God Bless It!
Will always find it's life on center stage...

On stage
My life...
My life...
Thank Goodness for Genetics!
On stage....

(Video Credit: OfficialWhyRock722)

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ay, may blogger pala ako! =p

2010-01-21T16:51:00.004+08:00

why hello there peeps! i haven't been here since ages so i just wanted to say hello and what's up. i was soooo hooked up with multiply, facebook, twitter and tumblr i didn't realized that my last post was last 2008 pa! omg, has it really been that long???

anyway, it's really fun re-living memories... i miss school, i miss meg and abs-cbn internships, i miss my friends, but most especially, i miss my mom. a lot of things have changed since the last time i updated my blog; some good, some bad... but at the end of the day, i'm still thankful that i have the people i love.

and oh btw, i watched lea salonga: your songs last december with my afls friends. it was definitely (one of) the best concert in the philippine history (if not in the entire world). i had lots of fun (although i didn't get to have a picture taken w/her during the second night coz me and abei had to rush to our company christmas party). nevertheless, i'd have to say that it was a really wicked concert. it's like lea salonga like you've never heard her before. just wow!

speaking of which, the lys telecast will be on january 23rd and 24th at 6:30pm on Net 25. be sure to mark your calendars and don't miss this amazing show. i'm telling you, you're not gonna regret spending time watching this HD concert.

ciao! (=

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MEG FACE SEARCH IS BAAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!

2009-09-05T00:32:00.002+08:00

It's officially back! MEG magazine is inviting all stunning, fun-loving and pretty MEGgurls aged 18-24 and who have NOT appeared in ANY commercials, TV shows, movies & print ads, go visit the MEG Grand Go-See on the following dates and venues, starting TOMORROW, Sept. 5th! Check out the attached image for the exact dates and venues:

Special thanks to megmagph@gmail.com for allowing me to repost the photo

For more details, please visit http://meggurl.com/

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Sorry, I Could Not Resist Eh!

2009-08-27T12:43:00.004+08:00

A few twittering months ago I saw Sidney posts tumblr updates on twitter.
I checked her posts and thought that tumblr was just another twitter wannabe.
Yesterday, though, while I was tasked to something blog related, I come across this website called Tumblr.
I checked it out and upon signing up (not mine, ok) I did a little searching inside the website.
It was fun to use pala.
You could post texts, photos, quotes, videos...
All in one go.
Nice!
But then, I thought.

"I must resist myself from signing up."

Ang hirap kasi mag-maintain ng maraming accounts.
At kung mags-sign up na naman ako for another account, super dami na ng accounts ko online.
But this morning, while I'm doing tumblr again...
Di na'ko naka-tiis.
So I signed up.
Just now.
I did kasi there were some features na wala (pa) ang Twitter.
Although I could say that I still love Twitter very much;
I guess tumblr will be another site that I will really enjoy.
So if you even care to check out, see my account at

http://littlejc.tumblr.com/

There.
I've said it.
So goodluck sa'ken di ba?
Ciao!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

For the Philippines' Mother of Democracy

2009-08-09T02:36:00.004+08:00

I know it's been a week since former President Cory Aquino died and this blog entry may be a little too late but I think it's better late than never. I've been thinking about posting a message at the Salamat President Cory website but every time I log on to the site I can't seem to find the right words to say. So after watching the burial I decided to write an entry regarding her death but I was able to finish two days after she was laid to rest.

So now, exactly nine days since she passed away, I finally decided to post the entry I was able to finish last Friday. This is an open letter for everyone who loves former President Cory - her supporters, loved ones, and every Filipino around the globe.

While most of the Filipinos cried because of the loss of a great President, I, together with my family weep for a different reason. Six years ago, our own mom passed away of colon cancer and when I heard that former President Cory Aquino contracted the disease as well, I can't help but felt sad. I prayed to the Lord to give former President more years to spend with her family, although deep inside I kind of felt that Him granting my prayer is no guarantee.

When we discovered that our own mom had a colon cancer, we tried our best, prayed harder just to beg God to heal her and extend her life. We visited different churches of different religions just for my mom's wellness, but her cancer was already in Stage 4 when we discovered about it, which is often incurable. I blamed the doctors for making a misdiagnoses on my mom; saying that she has a cancer of the ovary, only to realized that it was colon cancer in the middle of her supposed operation. She attended chemo therapies and for three years, going to the hospital seemed like a normal thing for us already. I was with you, Kris Aquino, when you said that it was hard to see your mother cry, knowing that you can do nothing to make her feel better. It hurt so much knowing that someone with a good heart contracted such incurable disease. It hurts more thinking about every single day might be your last with her.

When she passed away peacefully on the 16^th of January, it felt like my own world crashed down. I kept saying sorry to her during her burial; sorry for being a bad daughter... sorry for not being there all the time she needed me. What hurts more for me is when she died, it was just 9 months before my 18^th birthday. My mom's passing broke my little heart, feeling very disappointed that I wasn't able to do the things I was supposed to do or say the things I've been wanting to tell her all these years.

Your speech during the funeral mass send lumps on my throat and tears in my eyes. It feels like I can relate with every word you said, every stories you shared, and every heartaches you blurt out. However, I think that you were still lucky, Kris, because God gave you more than 30 years to be with your mom. I was watching the news the day after former President Cory's burial but it still makes me cry; feeling sad for her loss.

I was born two years after Sen. Ninoy Aquino died, so the only way I know about the things President Cory had done for the country was through our lessons in school or from the stories of the elders around me. I barely know your mother, except for what I have heard, read and seen on videos; but seeing someone who touched many lives died felt like a part of me was ripped apart, like someone close to me died as well. I cried not because such a great leader passed away, but because I felt the pain you and your family felt - losing your mother dearly for colon cancer. And you were right, Kris... it will take a lifetime for us to be Ok. It's been six years since my own mom passed away but there were times when I still wake up in the middle of the night and just cry, thinking about mommy.

Cancer is a bitch; it took our loved ones away from us. However, the least thing we could do when we lose them is to wish that they were already in peace, watching us from heaven with God the Father, and hoping that they will help us move forward.

My sincerest condolences.
Jhack Telan

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

MEG, Myself and I

2009-06-20T18:04:00.005+08:00

11 Secrets you need to know about me and my Ultimate Style Sister

For the past 11 years a lot of things have happened to me. I’ve been into the best and the worse case scenarios; and even lose the most important woman in my life. Because of these things I've change a lot... but there's definitely one thing that didn't changed, and that's my love for MEG. I don't know why or how but as I aged, my love for MEG just grows deeper. Maybe it's the content every ish, or the people behind it, or maybe... just maybe, it's how every ish is being made.

I, myself, was lucky enough to have experienced "real MEG work" and it's not an easy task. People may think that working for a magazine is the best job in the world because of its perks, but I tell you, it's real HARD WORK. I may not have stayed as a MEG intern for so long but I sure have my own "MEG Secrets." (=

1. Inner Poet. When I was a high school freshie, my fave section was Inner Poet. Whenever I buy MEG, I wouldn't really care about the other pages except Inner Poet. I even copied some entries on my journal!

2. The Editors. During my first few years as a MEG reader, the only editors I know were Liza Ilarde, Karen Vera and Pierra Calasanz. So when MEG was reborned and Pierra become the new Editor-in-Chief I felt soooooo happy and started to really pay attention (to every pages) because I know that MEG is in good hands.

3. The Word + Sneak Peek. Since I got so hooked up with MEG, The Word became my most favorite section because I love the fact that EIC's give personal spin to every sneak peek.

4. Soulmates??? During our Magazine Documentation, my friends kept saying that me and Pierra were "soulmates." The reasons? Well, first of all, we share the same birth date; then during that day, we're both wearing skirts, have the same phone, and everything that they could compare us with. I felt sooooo embarrased that day I wanted just to die and disappear.

5. MEG Intern Notebook. During my internship, I always bring a small notebook and a pen with me. It's where I write all my suggestions, instructions, realizations, schedules and all other stuff I could write about. The contents were kept hidden though until now.

6. Backward GNIDAER. Ever since I read MEG, I always start reding the magazine backwards. What I will do is scan the magazine first, read THE WORD, and then read the rest backwards. I love doing that coz I'm more interested in serious topics first before the rest of the pages.

7. Ask Angel. During one of the brainstorming sessions while I was still training for MEG, I was asked to think of ladies that could replace Lucy Torres-Gomez in the column ASK LUCY. I wrote down possible ladies such as Toni Gonzga, KC Concepcion, Bianca Gonzales, Angel Aquino, and even Lea Salonga (*wink wink). I didn't really shared it during the meeting but I remember telling (then Managing Ed) Mabel David-Pilar about my suggestions. A few months (?) later, Ask Angel was born! I'd like to think I was the one who suggested her. (=

8. Fashion Plate. Fashion spreads in MEG are amazing. BUT, I have to admit that I rarely follow the styles, especially the clothes, shoes and accessories they featured. Ok, well, I sometimes buy things from the magazine, but only if I really really want it. On the other hand, I'd have to say that ALL MEG Fashion Editors are the best stylistas! (=

9. Beauty Booty. I used to ignore the Beauty Booty section because no matter how insightful and helpful the features are, (most of the) products are just too expensive for me... at least at that time. Thanks to Kim Reyes and Beauty Booty is now one of the must-check out section for me!

10. Think About It. My article debut in MEG came out May 2005 entitled, "Remembering Mom." The said article was actually our assignment for our Feature Writing Class in college. Three years later, I co-wrote another controversial story (alongside d'great Nica Inoturan, of course) entitled, "Girls Like Girls." In those three years (and counting) I told myself that I wanted to keep writing for Think About It because like the other TAI writers, writing for TAI and hearing that people are touched by your writing made me feel proud of what I am doing, even if some people stopped me from doing so.

11. One more, please!?! During my internship, I only get to train from July-August because I seriously believed that we are obliged to fulfill 2 internships within one semester. Little did I know that it's actually ok to do just one so when I graduated, I told myself that I want to be a MEG intern again. But of course I know that it's soooo impossible now because according to Mabel, "May bayad na daw ako!" Darn!

There you go. I may not have been a MEG intern for more than three months but I definitely learned a lot from this Ultimate Style Sister of mine. Maybe that's the reason why after over a decade now I still choose and love MEG. (=
Happy 11th Anniv, MEG!

Photo Credit: http://www.meggurl.com/

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Learning The "Kalinangan" Language

2009-06-05T12:43:00.002+08:00

It's been almost 11 years now since I joined the Kalinangan Dance Company in high school and I'm glad (and darn proud) to say that I still love performing for this group, which helped me transform from being a shy girl to what I am now. So dahil pasukan na naman and for sure magkakaro'n na naman ng new dancers, allow me to share you (some of) the terminologies that I have learned through the years.

Lamonera - take this as an example: pag group dance, dapat precise yung galaw pero ikaw yung pansin na pansin dahil larger than life ang galaw mo out of all the other dancers.
Soloista - is someone who dances most, if not all, of the solo parts of a dance.
BG - short for Background. Ginagamit ito mostly during Rural Suites kung saan kailangan ng "extra" para maging lively yung stage.
Spot - as in "Spot turn." Yun yung parang pinaka-focus mo pag umikot ka.
Run-through - rehearsing with music (live or taped), either performance level or marking lang
Block/Blocking - this happens before the show, kung saan you run-through the steps without actually doing it kasi ang mahalaga sa blocking eh yung positioning sa stage i.e., spacing ng bawat isa sa bawat sayaw.
Center Stage - ito yung sinusunod ng lahat kung saan makikita ang marking/scotch tape, which is palatandaan kung saan ang center.
Marking - ginagamit 'pag nagrrun-through without doing the steps pero ginagawa mo yung blockings mo
Stand by - ibig sabihin, "malapit na mag-show so dapat oks na ang costume, make-up, accessories at props mo at wag na dapat maglilikot at pupunta kung saan-saan!"
Stand-in - is simply just anyone "filling-in" for someone who is absent (during rehearsals), not necessarily yung understudy. Kahit girl or guy yung sasayaw, ang stand-in eh yung pumapalit sa naka-cast sa sayaw kasi "wala lang."
Understudy - someone who learns the steps, usually of a Soloista, in case magka-conflict sa casting.
Company Call - is done after a rehearsal... parang meeting ba.
Bale - ang pag-bali ng upper body (pero dapat you look tall pa rin), ginagamit usually sa Maria Clara Suite.
Warm Up - aka stretching. Done before the rehearsal proper.
Flooring - warming up pero sa floor like sit ups, scissors, etc.
Performance Level - is used (mostly) during rehearsals, kung saan ang galaw ng isang dancer ay hindi "parang nagre-rehearse" lang kundi "pang-show" na talaga!
Green Room - meaning "praying time" before the show.
Raket - is a show na hindi connected sa "real" company (that you belong to)
Show - ang tawag kapag may sayaw for an event, raket, etc.
Danceroom - dito kung saan kami natuto ng Philippine Folk Dances. Dito rin sa danceroom ginagawa ang rehearsals, run-through, marking, company call, warm up, at kung anu-ano pa.
Ka-dancer - kung sa teatro ay "co-actors", sa amin naman ay "ka-dancer"
Tour - basically means "out of the country shows", either competition, festival or just invitational shows.
Rehearsal Tags - are what we (should) wear during rehearsals - t-shirt and jogging pants (pero 'pag alumni ka na, you can wear whatever you want na! =p)
Stretching - is what you do before the show... pampataas ng energy! usually it's like warm up pero you do this by yourself unlike with warm up na it's a-must.
Sides or Corners - during warm up, after flooring, sides/corners naman where you are tasked to do the spot turn at kung anu-ano pa.
Master Tape - is what you use kapag shows (if hindi live music)
Live Music - 'pag live music, ibig sabihin may real-time na tugtugan at pag may real-time na tugtugan, shempre may musicians.
Rehearsal Tape - is a copy of the master tape; it's what you use during rehearsals para hindi magasgas yung master tape.
Sapatilya - girls' footwear na ginagamit sa Maria Clara and Rural Suites.
Full Show - ang full show ay 30-45 minutes show (minimum), live or taped.
Technical Rehearsal - run-through with the technicals (without costumes). pwedeng performance level or marking.
Dress Rehearsal - run-through with the costumes without the technicals, pero dapat performance level.
Dress-Tech - run-through with costumes, technicals, props and accessories, performance level.
Labor of Love - show na walang bayad/TF!
Nanay/Tatay - aka Nanay-nanayan and tatay-tatayan. Sila yung elder dancers na tinuturing ng younger dancers na "takbuhan" pag may issue.
Nak - yan ang tawag sa mga younger dancers na tinuturing na "anak-anakan" ng mga elder dancers aka "nanay/tatay" nila. However, yung term na "anak" eh hindi general; depende lang yun sa elder dancer kung sino ang tatawagin niyang "anak" (note: usually, kung sino yung magaling na younger dancer siya yung tinatawag nilang "anak").
Be - is usually used to call someone who is younger (or youngest) in the group.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

17 No More!

2009-04-18T16:12:00.004+08:00

Since I was a high school freshie, I was a meggirl. Although I've tried reading other teen glossies like Candy, W.I.T.C.H., and Total Girl, I still find myself reading and liking meg at the end of the day. After feeling so disappointed with Candy upon reading the first (and last) issue I bought, I never subscribed to any other teen magazines except meg. However, I have to admit that I am a fan of one more teen glossy - Seventeen... US!

The first ish I had was actually (my younger cousin) Angel's copy - because her mom forced her to leave it to us na lang (before they go home to Tracy). After reading the magazine from cover to cover, I realized that Seventeen (US) wasn't so bad after all... it's like reading an older (earlier) version of meg, with more "serious" topics, more beauty and fashion spreads, and anything "meg." I even told myself to one day try and buy the Philippine version, which I wasn't able to do so.

This month though, when Nica told me that Marie Claire, T3 and Seventeen (Philippines) are saying goodbye already, I (surprisingly) felt sad. I always thought that it is meg's direct competitor and that Seventeen is waaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy better than Candy. So last Wednesday, I visited Booksale and (finally) purchased their last issue.

The farewell issue was heartbreaking, especially when I first read the EIC's note. It's sad to see a magazine like Seventeen go because looking at the pages, I think that the magazine is a good "guide to college girls." Although I think that meg is mas-maayos than Seventeen (because with meg, each section is segregated properly), their version of The Word really breaks my heart. I suddenly thought, "what if this happens to meg?" Siguro I would really feel devastated when that happens. Oh well, I'm just thankful that meg is still around and I hope that it will stay for as long as it could because I (still) believe that meg is the best teen glossy in the Philippines. ANYWAY.... (BACK TO SEVENTEEN =p).

Surprisingly after I finished reading the magazine, I can't help but compare it to meg. There are some sections I actually ended up liking but there are also some which I think were kinda corny. The fashion and beauty pages are cool; it's like meg when Pierra was still the EIC, and this issue was filled with Fashion spreads... features about fashion, beauty, guy section and their "teen drama/real life." yun nga lang, kalat-kalat yungSaka honestly, I think that meg tackles more serious topics than Seventeen (when it comes to Think About It and Guy Section). Plus they don't have a store info, where you can find the locations of the stores featured in the (current) issue.

Sad enough though, I still like it than Candy and I'm sad that Seventeen Magazine Philippines "graduated" this month. Sana yung Candy na lang ang nag-bye bye! =p

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

CALLING ALL KALINANGAN ALUMNI!!!

2009-02-06T22:42:00.001+08:00

The first rehearsal for the 25th Anniversary will start this coming Saturday, February 7th @ 1pm, at the ERJHS KDC Room. Please notify everyone you know.

All Alumni are welcome to attend and participate in the upcoming concert.

The show will be on February 21st, Saturday.

(Hope to) See you there!

Jhack (=

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

That Same Old Dream

2009-01-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

It's almost dinner time and there I was walking with Peewee to their house for dinner. As we walk our way to her home, she told me that she's earning P120,000 a month and that she would be really happy if I make it official. She said that she's willing to do anything and will give me the position if I said Yes. I was shocked by her determination and willingness to give it to me, knowing the fact that I kinda lack of experience when it comes to the business (although at the back of my mind I was happy and thrilled by what she just said). She opened the door and assist me inside, as she kisses her husband and introduced me to him for the first time.

After a few Hi's and Hello's to her husband, Peewee said, "Anak, tara samahan mo'ko, bili tayong food." I wasn't really hungry at the time but I did come with her to gp get some food for the three of us, anyway. As we were walking to Jollibee, Peewee and I continued chatting about her plans for MEG and how she enjoys her job, even if it is really stressing her out most of the time. She said that once I made it official, then things would probably be less stressful like how it is before. When we reached the counter in Jollibee, Peewee asked me what do I want and I said, "No thanks, Mommy. Busog pa po kasi ako eh," but she insisted me to choose so I just said, "fries and ice cream na lang po." After we get our orders, Peewee and I headed back to their house and was about to continue our conversation but before she could even start talking, the dream was cut short.

This isn't the first time I had a dream about me calling Peewee "Mom." The first time I dreamed of it, it was when I was lost in a forest and found myself in some school's dormitory. The setting was dark and creepy, I even get to a point where I was running so fast that I could almost lose my breath but Peewee came to rescue... comforted me and pointed me to the right direction. When I was about to go, I said, "Thank you so much, Mie" with a look in her face that describes either happiness, contentment, or relief.

I really don't know why I was having dreams like this about Peewee. I never saw her as a "Mom-like", although I could say that I really like her as a person, as a friend, and of course, as a MEG Editor-in-Chief. As I woke up this morning, I felt confused as to whether I would think of Peewee or my own Mom. However, as I dream about her being my "Mom," I noticed that the "scenes" are getting pleasant compared to the first dream. I think that the dream is more about my mom rather than Peewee, which is not to say that I'm dissing Peewee in those two dreams. She has been one of the kindest MEG peeps I have ever known and I am just really thankful that she's there for me, even in my dreams.

I also come to thinking that my mom is trying to tell me something, especially now that she just had her 6th death anniversary. My siblings and I weren't able to visit her grave and me having that dream serves as a warning, informing me (us) that we may have forgotten her (but we didn't, I even light a candle for her on a Sunday after her death anniversary). I also dreamed of my Mom's mother who passed away one or two years after she died, but that was another story.

I would refer to my book when I get back home and see if my thoughts are correct.
I just wish I could find the answers to this recurring dream.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

2009-01-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

Almost three years ago, I wrote an article entitled, "Remembering my Mom" that landed a space in meg magazine's Think About It section. It was an article I wrote for our Feature Writing class that actually took me a week to finish the article because every time I remember what happened I would stop and cry, regretting the things that I wasn't able to do, share or show while she was still here. It was a painful story but opened many eyes. However, it was last year (2008) when I felt I miss mom the most. I don't exactly know why, but 2008 was a really heart breaking (and so far the most stressful) year for me; so much that I could only wish I can astral project to where she is right now and share things to her.

Yes, even now that I'm 23, I still feel jealous whenever I see mothers and daughters together. Sometimes I even tell myself, "what if mom is still here?" and "if only she was here...” despite the fact of knowing that there is a purpose of her leaving us that early. I don't know; I just miss her terribly. There were times when I would hate my younger cousins if I see them talking shit to their moms, and I would tell myself, "You have no idea what the heck you're doing." I know I'm not the best daughter my parents ever had, but I wasn't raised to talk like that to my mom (or my dad). I just wished that those who disrespect their parents (their mom especially) will learn their lesson sooner than they think.

Anyway, ever since she left us, everything changed... at home, within the family, especially me. After mom's death, I thought that doors will open its way for me to feel "closer" to the rest of my family but it didn't happened (or at least I think it didn't yet). Things get worse... I had many sleepless nights, falling asleep crying, or waking up in the middle of the night crying... all because I remember (or dreamed) about mom.

Speaking of dreams, I once dreamed about getting lost in a forest when a fine lady pointed me to the right direction. I said "thank you so much Mie" when I was about to leave, even though I was very sure that she wasn't my own Mommy. At the time I was having second thoughts whether it was really my mom who pointed me the right path (only on a different face) or if I just see that person as a "Mom figure." It was kinda weird because whenever I see her in my dream she would barely say anything to me. Even though I wish I could talk to her even in my dreams, she just wouldn't. I wish I know why.

Of the six years that she's been "away" from us, life gets harder and harder everyday. Sometimes I already want to give up but her passing made me realized that I shouldn't... that somehow, she's "up there" guiding us and will not let anything bad to happen to us. And even if I wasn't as kind, open, and patience like my siblings, I think (I wish) that I somehow made her proud... not only for finishing school without any failing grades, but for following my dreams and slowly making them come to life (even if she's kinda doubting "what I want" at first).

I miss you so much Mommy.

-- "When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

A Word from an Angel

2008-10-16T16:24:00.004+08:00

i was having a conversation with my bestest cousin and she once shared a blog entry that she wrote on her myspace that really speak to me. in the blog she said, "You never know what you have until it's gone. Whether it's someone you know, something you had, or the life that you're living." i guess she was right. sometimes, we take something, or someone for granted only to find out that that something (or someone) will actually be the one who will be with you amidst all trials. i'm talking about lost friendships, loved ones, partners, even something we bought (that we thought was actually useless) or was given to us. there have been mishaps in my life... lots of it. i've lost friends, a valuable thing, even a parent. but as i look back at all those loses, i realized that why should i bury myself thinking about the past when i have a life and loved ones to take care of while they are still here? things happen for a reason and we must learn to realize the real purpose of the things that has happened before we question ourselves, or for the matter of fact, God.

if only words could kill, we could've all be dead by now. each of us have had word wars with someone before; something that started out of miscommunication turned into a world war III. when the word war is over and you've lost the person, it will either make you realize that either of you are wrong... that you shouldn't have done what you did... that what happened served him/her right. sometimes we give second chances, which will either make us be real friends or frenemies. after a week or two, someone will take it for granted... again! it's just pathetic!

there are things that are worth saving for... but sometimes, reconciliation isn't just enough. as carrie bradshaw said, "how could we forgive if we cannot forget?" forgiveness comes along not only with forget-ness, but also with maturity and clarity. and maybe, when that happens, we would never regret things that should've been done or not.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

MEG's 10th Anniv Party! (Repost from Multiply)

2008-09-16T12:09:00.006+08:00

Yay, finally, it's happening!

Start:	Sep 26, '08 6:00p
End:	Sep 26, '08 11:00p
Location:	Club Ascend, Fort Bonifacio

It's time to party, people!

Spread the buzz to your friends!

Meg Magazine, your ultimate style sister, is celebrating its 10th year with a bang!

Get a chance to meet and greet the winners of Meg Teen Choice 2008 and of Meg Face Search 2008.

Plus, one partygoer may be the lucky one to bring home an ACER Aspire Laptop.

Visit www.meggurl.com for more details.

Photo Credit: http://megmagazineph.multiply.com/
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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Keeping The Mouth SHUT

2008-09-15T13:19:00.009+08:00

Today, I read something that is kinda dated already, but it didn't stopped me from being b*tchy all over again because of the content. So before someone raises her eyebrow again let me just say these things to all of the avid readers of this blog, anonymous or otherwise..

READ BETWEEN THE LINES: Before you conclude things READ BETWEEN THE LINES first and ASSESS IF THE CONTENT'S REALLY FOR YOU. My goodness! There are over 7 million species in this country so what makes you think IT'S YOU SHE'S TALKING ABOUT??? Ang hirap kasi sa mga NORMAL na katulad mo, salita kayo nang salita, hindi mo naman alam kung ikaw ang tinutukoy.

KNOCK BEFORE YOU BUTT IN: In Tagalog, kumatok ka muna bago ka makisawsaw! Una sa lahat, alam mo ba talaga kung ano ang nangyari? Ang hirap kasi sa'ten, we sometimes jump into a conclusion without knowing BOTH SIDES of the story. Like other people out here who think they know EVERYTHING that's happened, why don't you try to decipher things first before you even muttered something nasty?

DECODE THE ACTS: Question, are you really sure that THAT ENTRY was FOR HER? Well, NO! So stop blabbering sh*ts as how you're telling me to because that particular entry wasn't intended for her. You're one of the brainiacs before right? Then use your worthy brain before worms start to eat its flesh.

GIVE CREDIT TO WHERE IT'S DUE: In Mass Media Law, any material that's been used (word-for-word, ideas) without acknowledging the owner is considered plagiarism (as in copy-pasted material). Even if something is just a piece of word that we got from another person's blog or over the internet in general, it is essential that we GIVE CREDIT TO WHERE IT'S DUE. What are we going to lose for saying that we got something from someone, anyway? Nothing! Now, what's all with these f*cking Mass Media Law and Ethics? The lesson is pretty simple; before you copy something that you got from another person, could you at least mention where you got that sh*t and not own it as it it's yours?! Admit it or not, it is not proper to just get something from someone without acknowledging the real owner.

ME? INSECURE? LMAO: Wait wait, are you serious? Why would I? Because the other person's found a new BEST FRIEND? Oh puhlease! Get over with that issue! That isn't what's up in the first place. And yes, I have known now who my REAL friends are and that doesn't consider anyone who doesn't really care about me. Stop stressing the third party out here because as you all claimed, SHE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY OF THESE ISSUE. Leave the third party alone... and so the TWO OF US. What's going on between the two of us is JUST FOR THE TWO OF US.

FOR THE "FORMER BFF": My apologies for this another entry. However, I stay true to my word that the DRAMA IS OVER between us and whatever came out in this blog has nothing to do with you. Yes, you are being mentioned in this blog entry, but we've settled this already the day after her entry came out. I'm not looking forward for a Word War III, but if someone said something nasty again after this, I'm telling you, this would just keep going.

Now, for everyone else who wants to butt in without knowing both sides of the story, go ahead! Just don't regret when things become very chaotic. (=

Photo Credit: http://www.jasonboom.com/images/postimages/mouthshut.jpg

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

JC's Top Ten Fashion Must-Have's

2008-09-01T16:43:00.003+08:00

Below are the top ten Must-have in my closet... or well, ten of my favorite things inside my closet.

1. A Trendy Jacket. Or a cardigan that is chic enough for work and casual clothing; somethinng that can go with every type of clothes - any color and style.

2. Jeans. Black skinny jeans is my fave. It can go with any type of tops, plus I can wear it even on Mondays!

3. Racerback Tees. Now... This is an ABSOLUTE favorite in my closet. I have over 20 racerback tees (one or two of them are just one style but in different colors) and I could say that it is the most comfortable piece for me! Black, white and pink are definitely must-have's!

4. Leggings. It's comfy plus it can go with either wedge, slippers or even flats! I can also wear it with or without a mini skirt (as long as I'm wearing a shirt dress or something like that).

5. (Elianto) Nail Colors. White, black, pink, orange, and "skin colors" are my fave at the moment. Here's a trivia: I wore white nail polish even before MEG featured it last July (I think)... well, at least before it got on print! (See Summer '08 photos)

6. Long Pearl Necklaces. I know this accessory can be outdated, but it makes plain-colored top fab! Try pairing it with black racerback tee, black skinny jeans and a white peep toe pumps... looks cute!

7. Silver cuff. I only have one cuff but that silver cuff is probably one of my most-used accessories. It just can go with anything, I love it! (Useful tip: Be careful when putting on accessories; more than 5 pieces is already too much... and remember, a pair of earrings are already considered 2pcs.)

8. Ballet Flats. Gold, to be exact. I love the chic-ness of gold flats because it can go with black, pink, green, brown, and even white tops! (But right now I'm finding a cute silver flats coz my two gold flats are already over-used =c)

9. Tote Bag. I don't know what's with it but I really like big bags. I like carrying big bags even though I'm not carrying a lot of things... I just find them really fabulous!

10. Flippers. Doesn't matter if it's Havaianas or Ipanema or what, as long as it's comfy and (the designs are) cute. Actually, I don't buy Havaianas (because alot of people already have it) and only have one designer flip flops - a brown Ipanema flippers, which was a pasalubong of our tito.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

"Confessions" Prime Rule

2008-08-21T17:00:00.003+08:00

This goes to all the buddies lurking around here:

1. If you have something to say, just say it. Don't think twice. I welcome all comments/opinions here - pro or anti.
2. I freaking hate wannabe's, so don't be one. You'll be dead if you got caught! =p
3. Do not lurk around my blog if you only want to spy. You're not gonna get anything from me.
4. Just be You. I don't want no players.

Keep reading! (=

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Blabbering Sh*ts

2008-08-21T12:05:00.002+08:00

Do you know someone who talks too much? Someone who keeps on telling you everything that they think was wrong about you? Have you ever been told by the people “close” to you what you must and must not do?

I hate it when someone says things that are below the belt. There are some people in my life who keeps on saying nasty things to me when I’m around them. When that happens, I would either just keep quiet, “fight” back, or walk out. I know it’s not right to “fight” back with elders; but if they are someone who disrespects you, is it still right to not say anything back?

One time, we were talking about the storm and if it will hit Manila; I told them that the storm will not hit Manila, although it will be rainy. And then someone said, “So does that mean that classes won’t be suspended?” I said I don’t know and then another blurted out, “Well, even if the classes and the work were suspended you still go to work,” with a devilish look in the talker’s eyes. Right then I wanted to grab the fork in front of me and stick it in the talker’s throat. I’m no student and there is nothing I could do if the company did not suspend the work day even if ten storms hit Manila. However, I kept quiet. I refrain myself from saying something because if I do, I might just say some things that will be hurtful for them. But that’s bullsh*t, that’s f*cking bullsh*t!

I mean, come to think of it. If you will say something to your neighbor, make sure you clean your own trash first. It’s just really annoying! I know that I am in a situation where no one would ever thought I would be, but I am sober and I know what I am doing. Stop talking as if you know EVERYTHING about me because you know nothing! How you are raising your chicks isn’t impressive either. Teach them some GOOD manners first before you tell me what to do and what not to do. And lastly, do your part as professionals first before you demand something from me because you’re not gonna get it. Not until both of us learned what respect really means.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Bessies Once More???

2008-08-13T12:21:00.001+08:00

A year ago I wrote a blog entitled "Bessies No More"; an entry about a flop on my 8-year relationship with my best friend, Laureen. From then on we've become one of the best enemies just like how we started, swearing to myself that I would never be friends with her ever again.

I was deeply hurt by how things turned out to be, but at the time was relieved that at least, I realized things before it got worst. I hate that she was such a drama queen and how she reacted with such situations, leaving me feel like what we had was just a mother f*cking lie.

Last December I was surprised when she IMed me to greet a Merry Christmas, which I unselfishly greeted back. I mean, it was just a holiday greeting and to me it meant nothing. But a few days ago I was as shocked when she YMed me again to said hello, and then the conversation goes on:

Thursday, 7 August, 2008
Laureen (12:05): hi
Jhack (12:05): hello
Jhack (12:05): aba nabuhay ka?
Laureen (12:06): hehe..oo nga eh..nagpakasal na kc c mau..saka dami ko din gngwa sa work..aun..
Jhack (12:12): so how's life?
Laureen (12:12): life?well..going smoothly confusing
Laureen (12:12): hehe..i dnt know..
Jhack (12:13): ah.. where are you working now?
Laureen (12:13): Sykes
Laureen (12:13): ikaw dun pa din ba?
Jhack (12:13): yep
Laureen (12:17): bwt before..sorry ah!
Laureen (12:18): ayko na icpn un
Jhack (12:18): i know how to control myself now
Jhack (12:18): wala yun ano ka ba!
Jhack (12:18): let's forget about it so we can move on
Jhack (12:18): and start all over..
Jhack (12:18): let's see if things will be alright
Laureen (12:18): and im fully amendable to that
Jhack (12:18): and siguro ok na rin muna yung ganito
Laureen (12:19): im sure it will be alryt
Laureen (12:19): yeah..i guess..
Jhack (12:19): at least we've overcome one another's drama..
Laureen (12:19): i was wrong and i admit it!
Jhack (12:19): forget it lau..
Laureen (12:19): hihi..yeah..
Jhack (12:19): we both made a mistake and i know we're both sorry for that
Laureen (12:19): okei

Right then I knew the wounds are healing, but we weren't back into each other's lives... well, at least for now. Don't get me wrong, forgiving someone, especially those who have played a big part on your life was never easy. But time heals all wounds and along with growing old, we learn to suck up all the drama and just decide to move on... after all, it's been a year already since the drama started!

So are we Bessies Once More? No. But just for the record, the drama was over (for now =p) and both have decided to start over and be Just Friends.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Gerard Salonga: THE Simon Cowell of the Philippines (?)

2008-07-17T11:36:00.004+08:00

I am Not a very big fan of Pinoy Dream Academy Season 2. Nakaka-asar panuorin dahil halos lahat ng scholars this season eh Drama Queen... o kaya naman Quitters... o kaya naman Pasaway sa rehearsals (especially Dance Class)... and worse... yung iba, may mga Imaginary Friends pa! I don't really watch the primetime telecast or Uberture until I saw Maestro Gerard Salonga two weeks ago sa Live Gala Night. At first akala ko Guest Juror lang siya, but when Toni Gonzaga announced that he was actually a Resident Juror ang nasabi lang namin sa bahay eh, "Goodluck sa mga scholars!" We've witnessed what he did before sa Star in a Million (please correct me if I'm wrong), where he gave 0 point to a certain contestant. After that episode inulan ng comments si Gerard Salonga from the press people and I even remember reading the headline, "Ang taas naman yata masyado ng standards ng kapatid ni Lea Salonga." Of course, this was from a tabloid, but reading the article about him suddenly made me doubt about what do the Filipinos really want in a judge (for a singing competition).

Now, back to Pinoy Dream Academy Season 2.

Honestly, I am happy that ABS-CBN picked Gerard Salonga as one of the Resident Jurors because for me he and Mr. Louie Ocampo deserves the part. Pero after one gala night people started commenting about the way Gerard judges on PDA 2. Meron pang nagsabi (from ABS-CBN forum), "about credentials naman,yes may mga award na siya sa pagiging musical director niya sa mga concerts nang kapatid niya & who is it? non other than Ms. Lea Salonga! Well, kahit sinong humawak kay Lea tiyak namang maganda ang labas dahil siya talagang may karapatan na.baka kung siya pa ang 1 sa juror mas pakikinggan ko pa ang mga comments niya unlike yung Gerald na hindi naman ganun kagaling din eh kung makapag comment akala mo mas mataas pa kesa kay Mr. Louie Ocampo......what he said that night? ...."ang malas ko naman"? Bayad ang pag upo niya dun para i guide ang mga scholar sa mas tama nilang gawin at i rate ang performance nila hindi para pangdirihan.Stop being so arrogant dahil hindi ka naman ganun ka fullfilled,kahit na anong sabihin mo,name pa din nang kapatid mo ang dala mo kaya ka andiyan."

Ang mahirap kasi sa atin, salita tayo nang salita, hindi naman natin kilala yung tao. Para sa'ken, there's nothing wrong with the way he judges on Gala Night. Truthful naman kasi yung mga sinasabi niya eh at alam niya talaga yung sinasabi niya, hindi tulad ng ibang nagj-judge na kahit ano na lang ang sasabihin, may masabi lang na maganda about the performance even if the performance really sucked. Take Simon Cowell as an example; he will say whatever he want to say, no matter how harsh it is, sasabihin niya 'yon dahil 'yon ang pananaw niya. And look at the talents he's mentoring (think Il Divo and Leona Lewis); Leona Lewis is the next big thing in America right now; earning USD2m just for a single interview (hindi pa kasama sa TF pag papakantahin mo siya). It only means that he knows what he's doing and he knows the definition of a true talent. With Gerard, however, he's worked with different singers and bands and those were the most respectable performers here and abroad. Aside from his sister Lea Salonga, Gerard has also worked with Martin Nievera, Lani Misalucha, Regine Velasquez, Barbie Almalbis, Kitchie Nadal, among others. The point here is that ABS-CBN put him there because they trusts his judgment. Knowing that he IS Lea Salonga's brother, had graduated Summa Cum Laude at Berklee College of Music and had won numerous awards, it's for sure that he has a SAY in this industry and that ABS-CBN knows he's worth it.

It's just funny that some of us wanted to hear sugarcoated comments pa rather than something truthful, basta huwag lang malait ang "manok" natin. Masakit man sa pandinig ng audience yung mga pinagsasasabi niya sa mga scholars pero kahit di man natin aminin, may pinapatunguhan yung sinasabi niya. I just hope that those scholars will take his words positively and will work from his constructive criticisms, after all, para sa mga scholars din naman yon eh!

Photo Credits: http://www.mylifeonstage.com/images/gerard.jpg

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

It's In The Genes...?

2008-07-10T11:48:00.003+08:00

Last night I received my July issue of MEG magazine and upon reading Maris's interview with Shaina (Magdayao) I realized something that it may be in the genes. In the interview Maris asked Ina how did she keep her body healthy (or something like that) and Ina answered with "I eat everything, madali naman kasi akong pumayat and madali din akong tumaba." With that I thought, "wait a minute, parang pareho kami ah (and we're related pa)!" Hmmmm, is it possible that it runs in the family?

A few weeks ago I wrote a blog entry entitled "Weight A Minute" and in there I shared about my so-called weight problem. Truth be told, it didn't seem like a big problem to me at first that I was underweight coz I always thought I was gonna get my "normal" weight back after a few weeks. Then again I have to admit that after I posted that entry I started regaining some pounds by taking vitamins (again), drinking milk every night, and eating as much as I could. Since then I started to gain some pounds, though not yet enough for one to say that it's already "normal."

Anyway, I was reading the interview and found out that just like me, Ina has a very fast metabolism din. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, "siguro nga nasa lahi namin (yung having a fast metabolism) kaya we lose and gain weight easily." Coz if I will dig deep through my family members, my mom's siblings (especially the guys) were all payatot, tapos Ina said pa na she has a fast metabolism din. So siguro nga, it runs in the family.

I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing pero one thing is for sure: what I have right now isn't anorexia or bulimia or whatever. I have my senses back and is doing good with my "diet" right now. In less than a month I already gained 5lbs and I aimed 5 or 6lbs more.

And besides, I'm not like someone diyan na walang disiplina sa sarili!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

When Laughter Fades Away...

2008-07-08T12:59:00.003+08:00

Remember the old cliche "laughter is the medicine"?

Today, I find myself laughing since 6am because of the Morning Rush. I couldn't stop myself from laughing since Friday, July 4th, after listening to the Top Ten Oldest or Most Outdated Jokes from the CDTop10 archives. It's been my "pampagising" every time I feel sleepy - at home or at work - and it's a great way to de-stress and take the sleepy-ness away.

Actually, as I type this entry I'm listening to another top ten, the (top ten) Teacher Quotes, and I was laughing my head off since the beginning. But something started to worry me: what unfortunate event will happen, if not later, if I'm too high right now? I don't wanna sound paranoid but it really bugs me, especially after hearing and seeing some mysterious dreams, which you cannot just "ignore."

On the other hand, I wanna say Happy 12th Year to the Morning Rush. It's still THE best show in the FM world and C&D will always be an unbeatable tandem on air. So what lies ahead of me after these funny top ten's? Good or bad, we'll see... For now I will just go back to listening to more hilarious top ten's while doing my work happily.

Photo Credits: http://content.answers.com/main/content/wp/en/thumb/4/40/400px-Drama-icon.svg.png

-- "When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Out With the Old, In With the New...

2008-07-07T11:29:00.003+08:00

Yesterday my sister and I went to the salon to finally have our hairs trimmed. We decided to take Phoebe with us even though I didn't want at first (coz I didn't want an 'alaga'). But since she's not so 'alagain' anymore we decided to take her na lang, since no one's at home except her mom and two sibs. We went to Index Salon and waited for our turn; 30 minutes later, we're still waiting.

I was a bit surprised with Phoebe because she's kinda behave - she's not asking us to carry her, nor to say she wants to go home na. The only thing she requests for was an ice cream, so while we were still waiting I went to Mc Donald's and bought her a sundae. After a while I smelled some foul odor and checked Phoebe, oh my! She did number 2! Good thing she's wearing a diaper! We're kinda worried na coz we didn't bring extra diapers or undies and baby wipes for cleaning her up. What made it worse pa was that we weren't called yet (coz we requested for Khen, eh he's coloring someone's hair pa ata). After an hour, my sister was finally called, hay salamat!

While ate was having her hair cut, I was taking care of Phoebe and let her roam around, since she's behaved naman. Eh nabo-bore na ata siya so she started walking around the parlor, checking out the drawers. When it was my turn and she's still roaming around, I kept an eye on her, watching na baka may masira siya. When she looked at me and saw that I was looking at her, she laughed at me and continue walking. After my haircut I felt extremely relieved na para bang nabunutan ako ng tinik.

We went to Jackman and Grand first so ate could buy shoes and bag for her new uniform and it was amazing that Phoebe is still behaved, as in hindi siya nagpa-karga though we can sense that she's tired na. So when we finally decided to go home ate carry her na lang and pagsakay ng tricycle, hayun at tulog agad si Phoebe Celica.

As for my new fab 'do, I'm loving it. Felt like I was 5 years younger. Buti na lang we waited for our turn, it was all worth it... sobra!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

It's Not Just A Product, It's A Labor of Love!

2008-06-18T21:46:00.003+08:00

Last night I was happy that my June ish was delivered sooner than I expected. I don't know if my blog had anything to do with it, but I'm really surprised that it come to me even before I can think of texting Michelle again.

Nica and I were IM-ing about this issue for a long time now. We're both tired of waiting for three weeks before it was delivered to us, but at the end of the day we still love MEG. I was actually surprised when she mentioned me in her article, Ten Great Things You Should Know About MEG. I did not expect that from her, knowing that I wasn't as active as she is with MEG, but seeing my name at the pages of MEG made me feel special.

I've only worked with UAAP special once, but it was definitely one of the most memorable experience. Not only that it was my first REAL MEG work experience, it was also the reason why Nica, Florian and I became friends. Since the UAAP field work ended Nica and I never stopped communicating, sharing our love for "her," even until I became an intern.

My MEG internship was incomparable. Although it was just for two months, I could say that I have met the best people there. They introduced me to the (as Peewee said) "unglamorous part of working with MEG", which refers to the endless tasks that needs to be accomplished. Even though there were some people that drives me crazy during my time, the Editors were as nice as I thought they would be. Ever since then I've come to love MEG more, especially the people who make sure every issue is a fab one.

I remember a friend asking me if I get paid with all the articles I have written for MEG, and I said no. She told me that that's unfair and that I should be paid for it, but I told her that it's ok... not because I don't need the money, but because I love what I'm doing. I guess that's really the case when you love doing something and you're passionate about it; you will really do it all for the labor of love. Just like when I'm dancing for Kalinangan, it's ok not to have a TF after a show, just as long as we had a great performance and I get to bond with my co-dancers (but should have Food after, of course! =p).

This year, as MEG turns ten, I feel proud and extremely happy that I became part of those wonderful ten years of MEG in the business. Just like what Nica and I always say to each other, despite of all the boo hoos with the Circulation and/or the unprofessional writers who keeps on backing out come deadline days, we will always stick with MEG. It may be having a very tough competition with Candy, Seventeen and Chalk, but for us, MEG will always be THE number one teen glossy in the country, just as it was the First Local Teen Glossy.

Here's to hoping MEG ten more years (and another ten)! Happy Birthday MEG!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

No Sky Too Big (Lyrics)

2008-06-17T21:53:00.005+08:00

Lea Salonga: No Sky Too Big

Look at that slice of blue, it's calling my name
Look at that silver cloud, it's doing the same
All over me I can see all my dreams tugging at all the seams of my heart
I just need one moment, and the moment that counts
Is the moment I start.

No sky too big, no dream too high
No star too distant to which I can't fly
No way I would go for all that's just there
In just a moment, I'm up in the air

Look at that mound of earth, that's rising below
Look at the eagle, he's waving hello
All within me I can feel every love tugging from above pulling me high
It's time now they say
All I need is today
To give it a try

No sky too big, no dream too high
No star too distant to which I can't fly
No way I would go for all that's just there
In just a moment, I'm up in the air

Sure had my doubts
So what else is new?
Who never had a misgiving or two?
But I'm learning now
Keep the wheels rollin' on
Shift up my gears
Till the doubts are all gone

No sky too big, no dream too high
No star too distant to which I can't fly
No way I would go for all that's just there
In just a moment
In just a moment
In just a moment
I'm up in the air

I'm up in the air

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Daddy...

2008-06-15T18:21:00.004+08:00

daddy - beyonce

For the past 22 years of my life, you have been there for me... for us...
guiding us every step of the way.
Even when Mom went away and life was hard on us, you stick with us.
You made sure we finished school, made sure we comply with every requirement, even if it means borrowing money from other people...
You find ways to provide for us... even though sometimes, it isn't enough.

I almost wanted to hate you before... hate you for hurting our feelings... for doing what you're not suppose to do... but I didn't.
I respected you as my dad in spite of all the rumors about you... and will always do.
I may have rarely expressed my proud and gratitude about having you as my father, but this day, on a very special day,
I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me.
And I hope that one day, someday, you'll realize how much I love and feel very proud to be your daughter.

Happy Father's Day, Daddy!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

"Weight" A Minute

2008-06-12T21:33:00.001+08:00

While most of the girls out there are dying to lose weight, I will be going to the other side. Last Tuesday, while still a bit weak from a fever last weekend, I checked my weight on the scale and was very surprised to see the result. The result stated that I needed to gain not just a pound or three, but ten (or more) pounds!

I was never bulimic or anorexic, nor I was a fan of the word "diet." Although a lot of people tells me that I was "on a diet" whenever I refuse to eat lunch, I never really diet or limit the food I take... It's just that I eat only when I'm hungry, and stops when I feel full... until recently.

Three weeks ago I stopped eating lunch for different reasons. Either I'm still feeling full because I had heavy breakfast (rice, that is) or it's just that I'm not in the mood to eat anything heavy. Then after a week or two I noticed that I have already been doing that for over a week so I checked myself on the scale... 87lbs. Oh my! I was below my average weight of 93lbs. Since I have a toothache I found an excuse and thought it may be because of that (can't eat too much). I tried using Sensodyne so I can still eat whatever I want.

But last Saturday, January 07th, I woke up at 7:30 in the morning with a sore throat. I tried to not mind it by having water therapy, thinking it may heal. After breakfast I decided to wash some of the tops I will be using for the next day's company outing and since those are just 5pcs, I've decided to hand wash all of it. But only after 10 minutes or less my back starts aching all the way to my spine and again, I tried not to mind it and finish with the laundry anyway.

I felt very tired after the laundry but still went to the grocery in the afternoon. I was still feeling ok at that time, but I can already feel some back and muscle pains. By the morning of Sunday I still kinda felt ok so I thought that the trip to Zambales will be stress and pain free for me.

Come Sunday night, my body starts to really scream from pain... Fever starts rising, I couldn't eat (as in NOT IN THE MOOD), and my back aches soooo bad! I stayed for most hours in our room at the resort resting, so I can join the Island Hopping the following day... which I did.

When we came back in Manila last Monday, June 09th, I headed straight to bed and rest til the next day. The next day I woke up still feeling dizzy but thankfully, without fever anymore. I tried to eat even though I could hardly eat (I feel like throwing up when I eat anything) and just stay in bed so I can regain my strength. Then I decided to check on my weight again and there it stated...

81lbs... Oh.My.God!

I couldn't believe what I saw and made me realized that (maybe) the reason why I'm feeling dizzy and weak all this time was because I'm sooooo underweight! I know I gain and lose weight easily, but I never expected it would dropped to like that. Although I know I can gain my target weight in less than two weeks, eating more is a bit difficult now since I'm already used to eating small amounts of food... but I'm trying, little by little. Hopefully, in two weeks time, I would be able to regain my old weight and strength back.

If only my Mom was here, for sure I already received kurot sa singit right now!

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

On Pleasing Others...

2008-06-06T11:27:00.005+08:00

Have you ever experienced writing a piece and ended up being misunderstood by someone? There was a time in my life when I wrote a piece entitled, MEG, Bakit Ka Ganyan?, aiming to blurt out my disappointment about the Circulation team. I felt relieve after I wrote the piece and having a former MEG EIC in my contacts I PMed her about the matter, just to fill her shocked. My first message goes like this:

May 31, '08 12:57 AM
for users tinypoem and jhacktelan

My apology for my blog... the Circulation just disappoints me alot!
Since 2006, I ALWAYS receive my copy very late, usually on the 3rd or 4th week of the month.
Nica has been telling me to send a complaint but I refuse to because Michelle Eugenio complies naman when I text her that I haven't received my copy yet. But if that will happen every month, that's just tiring. What's pissing me off more was the fact that I'm from Manila, which is 45 minutes away from the office. I will understand the delayed if I am living in the province but no eh, hindi naman ako taga-bundok para ma-delay nang sobra yung pagpapadala ng copy ko.

Maybe I will just follow Peewee's advice to me to not renew my subscription anymore... but who knows, maybe i will still subscribe if miracles happen with the Circulation. Sabi ko nga kay Peewee, I love MEG so much, except for the Circulation.

Jhack

Much to my surprise, I think she misunderstood the point of my blog and replied with:

Hi Jhack,

I understand your frustration! Having been there myself, please know that the Editorial team itself is frustrated knowing that subscribers aren't happy, but unfortunately, no matter how many times we've brought this up with Circulation, we have no power over their department. The thing is, your post probably hurts the Meg Editorial team more than Circulation, because people who don't bother to read the entire post will just automatically think that you're complaining about the magazine itself, not its late delivery. I think Nica's right, do send a formal complaint to Circulation, or even to Peewee which she can show management and forward to Circulation. That way, you will be targeting the right department with the right procedure, instead of making the entire magazine sound bad in public, which I'm sure is not your intention. Thanks for letting me know your thoughts, and I'm glad you care so much about Meg. Hope your official complaint might actually spark a real change. Good luck! :)

Right after I read her message I felt like I wanted to cry from guilt. No, I actually shed tears a few moments later. I was so devastated that she might not understood my point that I made MEG looked so bad and that I have problems with the magazine itself, not the Circulation team alone. So to my conviction and desire to make her understand my part, I told her my most disappointing experience about the Circulation:

I am sorry... I really am. I never intended to hurt the Editorial team nor anyone at MEG, I just really want to let it out, which is exactly why I close my blog for just my contacts. I was so disappointed when my May ish come VERY late (May 27); I understand though that they had a problem with the printing last May, so by the time the May issue came out I waited for my copy to be delivered. I texted Michelle Eugenio last May 26th, Monday, to inform about my undelivered copy because Nica already got hers on the 3rd week (I did not texted her on the 3rd week because I was assuming it will also come that week, but it didn't so I informed her early in the morning of the 26th). Michelle Eugenio asked for until the next day so they can deliver the copy, which they did naman. This is actually the reason why I refuse to sent a formal complaint, kasi when I inform them na I haven't received my copy, they complied naman. But what's tiring for me was the fact that I have to text and inform them pa just so I can have my copy delivered. I think that that's just a little unfair for us subscribers kasi we paid for it pero we don't get the right service.

Actually, I talked to Peewee already about my concern with the Circulation and she said that she will talk to the department daw. She also told me that she herself also received different complains about the late deliveries, and they try their best naman. I understand that it is possible to have a problem with anything every month but I hope it changes, kasi it's still business and the subscriber's does not deserve that kind of treatment. But I think I will just follow Peewee's advice to not extend my subscription na lang.

I apologize if my blog entry hurt anyone... I just really want to let it all out. Anyway, I will still remain true to my words that I am and will be loyal to MEG forever... despite of all the problems with the Circulation.

And to my relief, I finally got the understanding that I need...

Thanks so much for your support Jhack, it means a lot, even if I'm not in Meg anymore. But you are right, it's still business and the subscribers don't deserve that kind of treatment, that's why you become subscribers in the first place, to get more benefits than regular readers and to ensure that your copies will always be delivered either earlier or on time. If it happens again next month, perhaps it's time to lodge a formal complaint--you can phrase it politely and say that you appreciate that Michelle of Circulation responds quickly to your complaint, but the thing is, you shouldn't have to complain at all for them to act, and you're also speaking for all the other subscribers who don't have a voice. Obviously, they do what they can to take care of you, but I can imagine how many other subscribers must be feeling like you and just cancel their subscription out of frustration. And Meg really doesn't want to let down their readers, and even worse, lose some of them. Of course, you don't have to write a complaint if you're uncomfortable doing that. But I hope they get their act together soon! Thanks again Jhack.

So I ended the conversation with:

Actually, it's not just me who's not extending the subscription, Nica's not extending anymore as well. I know she has been a subscriber for years now, but because of the disappointing acts of the circulation department she will, for the first time, not going to renew her subscription anymore. If I remembered it right, Michelle offered her a 3-month free trial after she sent a formal complaint (which will end this June), but nothing has changed so she just decided not to continue with the subscription anymore. I am actually worried about other subscribers, because I can take all the late deliveries but of course, I will also feel hurt if MEG lose readers or subscribers because of the Circulation.

I always make sure to give Michelle a consideration whenever I text her about my undelivered copy but I am still a subscriber and I paid for it, therefore I should be treated rightly. Anyway, Nica mentioned to me that the Anniv ish might come out late again so maybe I have to expect a late delivery again.. but I hope it won't happen again.

But don't worry, you can count on me and Nica that we will stick with MEG. As we always say to each other nga, "Nasa system na namin yung MEG and we cannot and won't take it in there forever!"

My apologies once again.

I then realized that while all of us are free to vent anything through our blog, not everyone will agree to what we say. Unfortunately, not every readers can or will side on us, however great or worse the blog is all about. I've thought to myself that I will and can write whatever I want on my blog, but Nica's right... we have to consider the readers as well. Even if we say that it is MINE and I am free to do anything with it, apparently, someone will always go to the other side... which can also be good for us... sometimes.

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"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

THE Best LEAdventure (so far)!

2008-05-29T11:43:00.003+08:00

It was such a greeeeaaaat experience at the My Life Onstage concert and although this wasn't the first time that we'll be meeting Lea Salonga in person, the after show feels like it.

The Meet and Greet was fun! Although we didn't had the chance to get close with her, it was touching that it seemed like she wanted to pause when she saw us at the entrance but we chose not to bother her anymore because it's already late and there's still one more show the next day.

So yes, I watched on both nights but it was really worth it. The second night was double fun compared to the first night! After the concert we headed to the backstage (though very unsure because we didn't have the passes), but because we're so into meeting Lea we followed all the way to the tent where the Meet and Greet is happening (thanks so Sheila by the way).

Not the very first thing in mind, yes we lined up just to have a picture and an autograph signed. We don't usually do it, but decided to because we don't want to happen what we experienced last night. When it was me and Rico's turn Lea said, "Oh here they are!" I knew she knows we're AFLSers.

After she signed my program I asked her if we could have a picture taken with Jeff's cam. She said sure and pose, after that, she called everyone else to join us for a group pic, "Hey, come here!" So we asked the "guards" to take the picture and thanked Manang after that.

I wasn't going to elaborate on that more (coz I have review of the concert to be posted soon) but it was so far THE BEST.

Watch out for the telecast on ABS-CBN on June 15th. The Making of Cinderella will also air on ABS-CBN this Sunday, June 1st.

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

What Now???

2008-05-20T11:40:00.002+08:00

Two weeks have passed and I am so glad that I beat my deadline.

Well, it's been two days since the I passed my work and all I got is a nice "Thank You." I know this may be a sign of gratitude but I don't know why things are a bit bugging me... Well, I just wish that things will be on right. I know that I got and have done how they want it to turn out but the question is, "Have I satisfied their taste?"

Honestly, as much as I want to say Yes, I can't really be sure... but we'll see. Very soon!

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Review: MEG Grand Go-See '08

2008-05-08T11:40:00.002+08:00

It's only half past 11 in the morning but I already feel excited about going to the Go-See; not because I will join the MEG Face Search, but finally, I would get to see the people I've grown to love in meg again. Then come afternoon I received a text from Ana, saying that she can't make it for the night because they will be having a rehearsal til 11pm. Ganda! I texted (EIC) Peewee instead and asked her if she was visiting the Go-See because I will be there to meet Nica and Florian. After a while she replied to me and said that she will be there but can't stay til 6pm because she will be attending another event. I told myself that it's ok coz we may still meet if I leave early (in the office). I left at 5:11 in the office, hoping I could come to Glorietta before 6pm, which I did. I arrived at SM Makati at 5:45 and since I don't know where the Go-See booth is I texted Peewee to ask where the meg booth was located but she did not reply )=. Good thing the booth was just at the Activity Center! I was surprised to see the fabulous booth where a lot of girls are lining up for the registration, the make over booths, and the photo booth (where they will have their picture taken). I keep on walking around the booth, trying to find someone I know (while Nica hasn't arrived yet). "Wow, in-fairness ang daming sponsors ha!" I said to myself. I keep walking and stopping around the booth, actually trying to look for either Peewee or Tin (Yang). As I stopped for a while to text Nica, a man walk up to me and offered me to "join the search." I told him, "No thanks, I was just waiting for a friend, Manong", but in reality, I was like "Uhm, manong, I'm already contented (with just) writing for meg." I walk into the registration booth and look for the magazines they are selling (looking for the May issue) and again, a lady told me to "join the search" because they also offer "free make over." Being the suplada that I am I said no and kept looking at the magazines. As I was getting a bit sad about not seeing Peewee (coz we're supposed to meet so we can catch up), I sat down and read my texts. Thankfully, Nica finally texted me and said that she's already on her way to Glorietta (with an officemate). I also received a text from Peewee saying that she just left (along with the directions) but will be here tomorrow. Anyway, when Nica and her officemate arrived we decided to go to the go-see booth and check it out. Too bad we can't enter just like that coz the booths are exclusive for girls who are joining the MEG Face Search '08. Because of our eagerness to go inside Nica and I decided to buy the magazine and proceed with the go-see just so we can enter the meg booth. It was funny coz we (have to) pretend that we're both 21 and a college student! Hahaha! Anyway, upon waiting for our turn for the make over I finally saw Tinny, holding lists that facilitators use to write the contestant's number and name. She said that she was assigned in the Styling section and told us that we can only have our hair and make up done (obvious reasons). I introduced her to Nica and then dished out to go back to work. After 50 years of waiting, the guy, Michael, finally called us for make up. We were headed to The Face Shop booth where we met our "make up artists." I finished first so I get my camera from my bad and take snap shots of Nica having made up. When Nica was finished she told me, "let's have a picture with our stylists", which they gamely approved. As Nica and I were about to go out to meet Florian, Michael called us again and said we're not done yet, but we told him that we will not finish the makeover anymore because we're leaving. He gave us our "passport" as a remembrance. Nica, Florian and I went to Starbucks so we can talk about things. Too bad Nica's "iniirog" wasn't there. =)) We stayed in Starbucks for the next few hours talking about MEG days, MEG babies, and our inis-ness for HER ("L.B."). We talked about how we miss the Pierra-Mabel-Peewee tandem, our own internships, and the UAAP seasons. Nica and I also talked about out upcoming article (yes, we're working together again, yay!). She shared that when she was to tell Peewee that she needed help for the article (because the topic will surely create a buzz once published) and that she's seeking help from me, Peewee told her (something like), "Oo nga, asan na ang bruhang 'yon? Bakit hindi siya nagpaparamdam? Sasabunutan ko yun eh!" Hehe, sorry po ate ha! Anyway, no more spoilers... =p We talked until both our "sundo" came. We parted ways and hugged each other goodbye, hoping we would meet again some other time. All in all, I was actually impressed with this year's Go-See because aside from the fact that they have a lot of sponsors, a lot of girls really participated in the search. I missed working for meg, and I'm really excited to finally work again... even for the "Labor of Love" (if you know what I mean).

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A little drama on the side: exciting as it may seem for me to write and contribute again, I'm really really nervous as to how my writings will come out. I don't want to disappoint the people who trusted me (that I can do it) and going for this is my biggest fear. I just wish I can pull this off and make a difference to other teens, just like (what happened to) my debut article, "Remembering My Mom".

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

Today I Realized...

2008-05-03T22:58:00.005+08:00

1. A good quality camera and a creative mind can give life even to the most wala lang things.
2. Silence doesn't always mean yes, you're weak, or you can't fight back. I believe that the most dangerous enemy are the ones not saying anything because once they said something, it will surely hit you straight to the bones.
3. While most people think that being alone is the worse thing that could happen to a person, it isn't always the truth. In fact, doing things on your own can give you the opportunity to do whatever the heck you want.
4. A friendship that started in an instant won't last for so long. Especially if you are forced to befriend that someone just because you are in the same area.
5. It's much better to have a blog full of hate but all-original entries than a blog full of crappy copy-pasted materials.
6. Just when you think your enemy doesn't care about you anymore, well, they do! In fact, they always check your personal spaces over the internet (but they make sure they are) offline.
7. When you posted something hurtful and a frienemy posted an "answer" to your post, it means that not only had she read your post, it also hit her straight to the heart.
8. The best way to fight back is keep quiet and be a great observer. Don't mind them if they say you're chicken, they will eat everything they have said in the future once you've come up with a master plan.
9. Love is not a maybe thing. I watched The Hills vid streaming in MTV.com and LC was right. When you love someone or something it must be for sure and for real. Because if you love someone just because you benefit from them, then it's not actually love. Maybe you just need the other person.
10. A real friend is someone who is ready and willing to take your words of wisdom no matter how hurtful it is. If you don't want a "friend" to make "pakealam" your life, then you're not really friends.
11. It is never enough to just dream and believe. If you want to achieve something, don't just sit there and believe that one day it will all come true... make way to achieve those dreams and goals!
12. I can't believe I'm back on some work again! Finally... I hope this could be the "real" start.
13. It pays to be Honest and True to your self. You may lose a few people in your life because of this, but trust me, nothing is more important than being true not only to the people around you, but most especailly to yourself.

That's it for now. I will update this entry once I've come up with another set of thoughts.

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Blacksheep

2008-04-01T11:49:00.001+08:00

Have you ever hated your parents? Have they ever hurt you, physically or mentally, that made you cursed them? I admit I'm not the best daughter my parents ever had; I have had gaps with them before and have done a lot of crazy things that they punished me for it, but there is something I know I have to be proud of.

I had a friend whose father isn't the best father in the world. She once told me that his father had other family (or was it families?) and the worse part is his father sometimes asked money from her to finance the needs of his second family. As the prime daughter my friend felt a little anger for her dad so when she has a boyfriend, she moved out of the house and live with her boyfriend's (family) house. Their relationship lasted for a few years until they broke up of third party.

However, even though her father already had another family he still go home at their house to spend some time with them. Several months after they broke up, she had a new boyfriend that seemed ok with her family, but it was the other way around for the guy's side. They were a happy couple until she met this girl in our office that filled all the things her boyfriend can't. We tried to talk to her and tell not to do "that" because she is taken by another person. But little did we know, it's already been a few weeks since they have been together. I felt a bit mad at her because I felt like she made no difference with her father. And here's why:

I believe in the saying, "Ang ginawa ng matanda ay gagawin din ng bata" and for me cheating on her boyfriend doesn't make any difference with his father cheating at her mother. What is more disappointing is that she hated her father that she even shared once, "kung merong mauuna sa kanila (ng nanay ko), sana siya na lang."

I know my father hurt us as well before.... having girlfriends only several months after mom passed away, and some (I mean most) are even younger than me. I almost hated him because he let it happened to us, but I realized I can't really hate him... because I respect him and I love him as my father.

I don't understand why there are sons and daughter who treated their parents like that. They're also human, they've also become sons and daughters, and I know, they know better than us. If they made something bad to our family, I think it's not only him that should be blamed, but us as well because we let it happened.

I am glad that while my dad is back in his old "binata life", my siblings and I stay stucked together amidst the trials. And one reason behind this I think is that because when my parents are still together, they taught us the values of respect, love and loyalty. And one more thing is that even if mom wasn't here anymore, my dad worked so hard to make the three of us graduate from college... And I am very proud of it!

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

On Friendship...

2008-03-25T11:46:00.000+08:00

To Call a Friend, or a Former Friend UNREAL Makes You a Total Dumbass coz You Let the Bitch Fool You... And If You're Too Quiet to Tell Her What's Up, then There is No One to be Blame but Your Self.

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

Theme Song(s) ng Buhay Ko...

2008-03-14T23:32:00.001+08:00

1. Song that would remind you of your ex?
> n/a

2. Song you usually sing when your in
the bathroom?
> no particular song

3. Song that you offer for your special
someone right now?
> Flaws and All by Beyonce

4. Song that you want someone to
sing to you?
> The Promise by Martin Nievera

5. Song you used to sing when you were
in pre-school?
> disney songs

6. Song you and your mom/dad love to
sing?
> dad always want me to sing "How did you know" in Vid-oke

7. Song that's playing on your mind
right now?
> Listen by Beyonce

8. Song that would make you cry?
> There are lots; Listen, Flaws and All, I Only Wanna Be With You
(Vonda Shepard), Two Words (Lea Salonga), etc.

9. Current song you downloaded?
> With You by Chris Brown

10. Song on your friendster profile?
> Makes Me Wonder - Marie Digby cover (audio), Listen - Beyonce

11. Song that would make you groove?
> Get Me Bodied (Beyonce), Don't Stop the Music (Rihanna), Whine Up (Kat de Luna), Low (Flo-Rida ft T-Pain), Straight Up (Sean Paul), etc

12. Song most played on your IPOD/MP4?
Beyonce and Lea songs

13. Ringtone of your Cellphone?
> Two Words-With You I'm Born Again by Rob Chien and Lea Salonga (Calls),
Umbrella by Marie Digby (Texts)

14. Song that you hate the most?
> Ulan by Cueshe at madami pang iba

15. Favorite song when you were in
highschool?
> This I Promise You

16. Song that would best describe your current situation?
> Listen by Beyonce

17. Song you always hear nowadays?
> Bug-A-boo/Beyonce Experience album (Still on High)

18. You and your bestfriend's
themesong?
> This I Promise You (You know who you are)

19. Song you always sing in a videoke?
> I Honestly Love You, depends on my mood

20. when you die, what song will be
played on your funeral?
> OMG, I don't know... maybe Good Enough by Sarah McLachlan

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

Centennial Confessions...

2008-03-13T11:37:00.003+08:00

Waaahah this is my 101th post... I can't believe I reached my first hundredth post here in blogger... Started out when I was in college, I've already, almost, forgot about this blog, but here I am, typing my 101th post.

I can't believe how many thoughts I have shared to, well, anyone who reads this blog... if there is any! =p But if truth be told, I am proud of this blog coz this contains original thoughts and not a blog full of copy-pasted material... like some GIRLs do. =p

Hmmm, if YOU read this well this is the only thing I could say to you:

There is nothing you can do with this rant but just raise your eyebrow coz I won't stop doing this. I am entitled for my own view point so I will say whatever the heck I wanted to say, so long as I don't name names... (coz that's more decent than blurting out a name) If you want, you can blog it... Come on, you can write it out, you're free to write it... Can you? (=

Anyway... I am happy right now. Not just because all my efforts paid off but because little by little, all the ugly ones are going away. And No, I did not put a cursed on them... It just happened. =p

So one more thing before I go, I wanted everyone to know that this is staying alive... so you'll probably see another hundred of this... and hopefully, more than hundreds.

Jhack(=

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent."

Random Thoughts 101: Of England Jersey, Beyonce, and Today's Rally

2008-02-29T11:35:00.006+08:00

England Jersey #08:
It's Friday and I am wearing all red today. Today I was wearing this cute red #08 England jersey bebi and I bought last weekend at 168. Sooooooooo cute! I topped it with my red peep toe flats, jeans, and my red lacoste back pack. Joy was teasing me "Happy Birthday" when she saw me in the comfort room... Happy Birthday pa?!

Beyonce vs. Charice Pempengco:
A few weeks ago I heard my officemates talk about Charice Pempengco's version of Listen (from the movie, Dreamgirls). As everyone knows, Listen was sung by Beyonce and for me it was one of the best songs she's ever performed. Then I heard them said that Charice's version is way better than Beyonce because Beyonce can't sing it (live) the way she recorded it (coz in Beyonce Experience, she did not sing the high note part of the song, but did it on a lower note instead). I think it's kinda pathetic, comparing Beyonce into a thirteen (?) year old kid. I mean, come on, Charice has a good voice; I even think she's one of the best singers of her time, but puhlease! Do not compare her with Beyonce! Beyonce's version of the song is moving and knowing the lyric and the message of the song doesn't just suit Charice Pempengco. Beyonce has gone through a lot and for me her version is way flawless than Charice Pempengco and Bianca Ryan.

Makati Rally at 1pm:
This morning, while I was on my way to work a woman ride into the same bus I was riding in, holding a banner saying "Evil Gloria." I am not an Anti-Administration and neither a Pro-Admin, but I think that it's a bit stupid that these people will actually waste their time yelling at Paseo de Roxas and Ayala Avenue, to try and oust President Gloria. Well, yes, the woman had done a mistake, I meant we all do, but for me, even if they oust Gloria and put VP Noli de Castro into the position, if everyone else did not change then nothing good will really happen in the Philippines. I just wish that people will wake up to their senses and think of what should be really done. Let her finish her term, saka kayo mag-agawan sa pwesto! (And for sure, Jun Lozada is already thinking of running for the 2010 elections).

Oh please, God Bless the Philippines.

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Not.In.The.Mood.

2008-02-27T11:35:00.004+08:00

It's half past 11 and I'm still not in the mood to eat anything.

I had bread, steak, egg and tomatoes for breakfast and right now I still don't wanna eat when I know I should. So I went to ministop to grab something to eat later when I felt hungry. I was supposed to buy donuts but I instead get two Cream-O's, a bottle of water, and Cadburry's Chocettes.
I actually feel a bit dizzy; I presumed this was because of coffee because I am already drinking coffee for three days straight. For those who didn't know, I stopped drinking coffee (and avoided drinking Iced Tea that often) last year because it made me feel dizzy and have butterflies in my stomach. But lately I started drinking again, thinking that it's just because of the water.
And when I do drink coffee for how many straight days, this happens, and I mean I really feel dizzy when this happens.

But hey, I love coffee and I couldn't (and wouldn't) just resist it.

I actually had coffee (again) this morning so maybe that's why I am not yet in the mood to eat anything (besides still feeling full).

Suddenly, I remember what my tita's Feng Shui book said about the Oxen people...

Watch out for stomach and digestive system...

=)

--
"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Amidst the Silence...

2008-02-26T11:46:00.004+08:00

You know when you have a silent war going on between your colleagues... which is better, a fight that is like a roller coaster ride, so loud and nasty; or something like mercy killing? Quiet yet your insides are like bomb, ready to explode anytime?

I have been "alone" for the past few weeks, and though I could actually say that I am happy, things around me are pretty nasty. I love being alone, but seeing the freaky people inside makes me just go crazy.

I don't wanna hear no nonsense stories about people I don't know... their crappy-ness and bullsh!ts in life, anything that is a total waste of my precious time.

But hey, I cannot take that away from them... It's their right, I mean, they can say whatever the heck they want, so long as I don't hear my name.

And one more thing before I go back to my work, I just wanted to tell the world that I am happy... because little by little, I am beginning to eliminate the nonsense people in my life. =)

Mean but yes, it's true!

"When you lie, Be Consistent. (="

Another Random Question/s

2008-02-21T20:10:00.002+08:00

1.Ano ang mas madalas mo pindutin:
Delete or Backspace?
^ delete

2.Raincoat, umbrella o sugod sa ulan?
^ umbrella (kahit gusto ko mag-raincoat)

3.sometimes you hate your cellphone
because___?
^ of forwarded messages... (here's the truth: I don't read them.)

4.Paano mo patayin ang ipis?
^ tumatakbo ako pag nakakakita ako ng ipis

5.Anong una mong pinupuntahan sa mall?
^ it depends

6.Nahulog kna ba sa Stairs?
^ yes

7.Message mo sa mahal mo?
^ kalamo kalamo!

8.mahal mo pa ba xa?
^ =D

9.gano ka kafunny?
^ HAHA funny

10.Have you fallen in love with your
best friend?
^ WT?! They're girlies!

11.Naiilang ka ba pag ikaw lang ang
kumakain at nakatingin lang ang mga
kasama mo?
^ uh, hindeee

12.Bakit may mga taong manhid?
^ kasi manhid din ako sa kanila

13.pano ka magalit?
^ tahimik lang... hindi namamansin, pinipigilang sumabog ang sarili ko

14.Anong Maganda/Masarap Gawin sa
Outing w/Barkada?
^ eat, share stories, dance and just have fun

15.How was your 2007 Summer?
^ just ok

16.How long was your longest telebabad?
^ 45mins-1hr

17.Last place uv been to?
^ office

18.They say you are:
^ haughty

19.Last thing you drank?
^ water

20.Last thing you bought for yourself?
^ squidballs

21.You want to?
^ just loose it all off

part 2

1.anong ayos ng buhok mo ngayon?
- hair down

2. kumusta na ang puso mo?
- nasa loob pa din ng katawan ko

3. may iniisip ka ba ngayon?
- meron

4. madali ka bang magalit?
- OO

5. kelan ka huling nakakita ng unggoy?
- last year, sa Avilon

6. kelan ka huling uminom ng taho?
- this year lang

7. anong huli mong ininom?
- TUBEG

8. my crush k b ngayun??
- wala! crush pa?!

9. single? taken? o reserved?
- ano sa tingin mo? =p

10. kelan ka huling tumawa?
- a few mins ago

11. madali ka bang maimpluwensyahan?
- hindi

12. e may lakad ka ba mamaya?
- sa kapitbahay, kakaen ng dinner

13.may pinoproblema ka ba ngayon?
- wala naman... siguro!

14. anong pinakagusto mong nabili?
- my iPod

15. mahilig ka bang tumakbo?
- no but i brisk walk

16. anong huli mong napanood sa tv?
- ANTM and Tyra... Sabay ngayon! waaaahhh!
Di ko alam ano uunahin ko!

18. madali ka bang magpatawad?
- honestly, hindi... pero depende sa nagawa at kung sino papaawarin

19. malikot ka ba?
- matulog? oo sobra!

20. anong mas gusto mo? single na gusto
mo plang o taken na mahal mo na?
- single

21. last friend/s you have been with?
- abei

22. ilan ang sim mo?
- tatlo

23. sino madalas mO ka text?
- abei

24. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
- ANTM

25.san ka nakita last sunday?
- church, sm north, moa

26. may curfew ka ba?
- wala naman, but i make sure i don't go home (super) late

27. anong pinagkakaabalahan mo ngaun?
- TV saka eto

28. sa palagay mo cno sunod na ssagot
sa survey na to?
- ewan ko

29. cno ung taong huling nagpaiyak
sayo?
- di ko na matandaan eh

"When you got something in your head, don't stop until you're really, really good at it." -Lea Salonga

The Pursuit of Happy-ness

2008-02-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

Picture this: You are alone in your station, doing your stuff, while everyone else around you talks happily about nothingness. Lunch time go and you are eating alone by yourself. Come dismissal time, and still you are alone... Would you be happy if it were you experiencing all that?

But of course I will!

Well, these past few days I am alone "there". Not literally though, but I have no company as I go through each and every day. No one to talk to when things get boring and no one to ride the jeepney when it's time to come home. But, as weird as it may seem, I am actually having fun being alone these past few days.

The perks are as follows:

1. I can eat wherever I want.

2. I can eat whatever I want.

3. I am able to do my task as many as I used to finished.

4. When things get boring, I just easily turn my music on and listen to my fave songs at the moment.

5. I can go home as early or as late as I want to... Without no one I have to wait!

6. I can go straight home without passing through the mall first and check out whatever I see.

7. I am assured that my client is satisfied with my work (because I am fully concentrated with it).

8. When it's time to work, I can go straight to work.

9. I don't need to listen to endless stories no more (which is a disturbance to my work)!

10. I can fully concentrate with my task.

You may think that the list is kinda retarded but I am telling you, I really enjoy the things going right now. And believe it or not, it is sooooo ok for me to keep it that way.

And besides, I am doing something I SHOULD be doing... not something that isn't in my LINE OF WORK. Why wouldn't I be happy with that? (=

CCP: AUDITIONS FOR FREELANCE DANCERS

2008-02-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

A U D I T I O N S for
f R e e L a N c E d A n C e R s

The CCP is auditioning freelance dancers
who can do both folk and contemporary
dances for a touring production.

Saturday 9 February / Tanghalang Nicanor
Abelardo (CCP Main Theater)
Tuesday 12 February / Tanghalang Aurelio
Tolentino (CCP Little Theater)

Registration 5-6PM
Auditions 6-8PM

Please bring resume & two (2) pictures
(1 passport size & 1 full body shot).

For details, please contact
Ms. Bernie Abella at 832-1125 loc. 1111
or Ms. Clottie Lucero loc. 1606.

Ms. Dominique R.H. Dionisio Culture and
Arts Officer II, Music Division
Performing Arts Department, Cultural
Center of the Philippines
Office No.: 832-1125 loc. 1605/Fax No.:
832-2314
E-mail: ccp.musicdivision@yahoo.com

Ps: Sa'n kaya ang tour???

CCP's PASINAYA 2008

2008-01-28T16:49:00.000+08:00

(From CCP's Friendster account... Nuod tayo!)

“PAY WHAT YOU CAN, SEE ALL YOU CAN”
at the CCP's P A S I N A Y A 2008

The public is invited to sneak previews
of the 2008 performance season at the
Cultural Center of the Philippines in
PASINAYA 2008: The CCP Open House
Festival on Sunday, February 3 at
various CCP venues.

Pasinaya 2008 features the CCP resident
companies and guests artists in 10-15
minute showcases throughout the day.
Hands-on workshops, seminars, walking
tours, film screenings of the Cinemalaya
Independent Film Festival shall be
featured on the same day. Free admission
is offered to all exhibits in the CCP
galleries. There will be food booths,
information and marketing displays, and
activity stations for audiences of all ages.

Pasinaya 2008 offers previews of the
2008 season of the Philippine
Philharmonic Orchestra, UST Symphony
Orchestra, Ramon Obusan Folkloric Group,
Tanghalang Pilipino, Ballet Philippines,
Philippine Ballet Theater, Bayanihan
Philippine National Folk Dance Company,
Philippine Madrigal Singers and NAMCYA
(National Music Competitions for Young
Artists).

Pasinaya 2008 offers a unique Pay What
You Can, See All You Can scheme, that
allows audiences to view as many shows
for a one-time token fee.

A 50% discount on ticket purchases for
shows slated throughout the year may
also be availed only during the festival
day. Watch all shows presented by the
CCP resident companies and get your
program stamped as proof of attendance
and avail of a 20% discount at any given
time throughout the year.

For more information, please call the
CCP Performing Arts Department at Tel.
No. 832-1125 locals 1600-1607 and direct
line 832-2314 or the CCP Marketing
Department at Tel. No. 832-1125 locals
1800-1806.

You may click this link to view the
Pasinaya schedule:
http://www.culturalcenter.gov.ph/PASINAYA Schedule.pdf

Mommy...

2008-01-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

The past week was weird. I don't know if it was just because I was so hooked up with Patayin sa Sindak si Barbara or what, but heck it really is weird!

Last week I had a dream about my Mommy. Actually, I dreamed of her for two consecutive days already. I wanted to know what is the real meaning behind that and though thoughts are starting to form into my crazy little mind, things are still vague for me.

1st Night: The Resurrection.
It was as if she rose from the dead. She was lying into their bed, in their original bedroom. She was well and strong, seeming like she didn't have cancer. I asked her where is she sleeping (at the time she was 'gone' here on earth) and answered me with, "sa simbahan... minsan sa kalsada..." She also added that she's even going to work (in SSS) sometimes but the one thing that really marked with me was when she said, "Andito lang naman ako sa tabi-tabi eh..."

2nd Night: Tragedy.
I was standing (or sitting) in front of a building (more like a church) when I saw Abei hit by an SUV truck. Because the impact of the hit was so strong she died in an instant and was placed in a Funeral home. While her remains was still in their, her father had their home reconstructed (beautifully) because that's what she wants.

I went home to rest and prepare the DVD's I am going to return to her the next day and as I lay in my bed, preparing to sleep, Abei texted me with,
"Pwede sama ka na lang sa'ken Next Year?
Ay hindi, pwede next month?
Pwede next week?
Pwede bukas?

AY hindi... Pwede, MAMAYA na lang?"

I was scared by the text so I cover myself with the blanket when someone lay beside me and hold my hand. I pull of the covers and saw it was my Mommy. I was shocked and asked her, "Ba't ganyan hitsura mo?" (you know how people looked like when he is about to die? that's what she looked like!) She didn't answer me and just tell me, "Ayun oh, MCU Monumento!" I was like, "What?" and she told me, "Siyempre ako lang nakakakita no'n..."

Next day came and I was preparing to leave (to meet Abei... how weird) and return the three DVD's I borrowed. Before I leave I checked her refrigerator-like football treasures and arranged it. As I was about to go, someone like stopped me from going and the dream was cut.

Actually, this whole dream thing for was just like a "sign" from her that maybe, it's time for us to visit her at the cemetery (because we, her children, didn't visit her last Jan 16th (her 5th Death Anniversary), but still, I didn't know what the true story behind these... And I wanna know what it is. For real.

I miss you so much, Mommy...
I Love You... We, Love You.